"I refuse to play the game. I refuse to flatter egos. I refuse to pretend everything's fine. I refuse to smile when something inside me is breaking. And my refusal is powerful, but it's also lonely." - Deep Thinkers (ebook)

the play on words in many of circumstance can be quite joyful Anyway enjoy a playist of some music I discovered. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IveLFAPGVaaeRkoBU1s0W?si=OHGjB4z5Rp6-0Mn9XVr3wg&pi=NLyzfTggRPeyO or 2 https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1eMm6miM2MypKBwb90UnZT?si=ugoJzOMlQl6yOSoDWYWv2g&pi=JwUlfLtiSPqf1 P.S. I don't care enough to learn how to create a tracking link, and word to your mother it's on oneself to indulge.

At a certain point in your life, you have to make THE choice. 6 years ago was one of the biggest YouTubers teaching Instagram, sharing algorithm updates and how to growth hack the followers game. I was living in a $2M apartment, wasting money at the club. From the outside, I had made it. But on the inside I was dying... I had just come home from Ibiza... A trip to celebrate @Leo Armaad turning 21 I believe. We had rented a massive villa with 2 other online business bros. We had booked VIP tables in the club, loaded up on coke and booz and was ready for the time of our lives. The first night out, I got so drunk I blacked out and missed out on all the team photos. One of the bouncers had poured a bucked of ice water over my head, and nothing. I was out cold. The next night was better as we got to watch Steve Aioki perform his magic, while spending thousands on all kinds of nonsense that should not be named. Then one week later... Me and @Leo Armaad traveled to the north side of the island for our first mushroom ceremony. The north side of Ibiza has a large spiritual community, and this would be both of our first deep dive into the world of spirituality. This is where I got introduced to Wim Hof Breathwork for the first time. Long story short, it was a beautiful experience. I came home to Norway a changed man. And there was a rift in my psyche... Two worlds colliding. The world of unconsciousness. And the world of consciousness. The world of consumerism. And the world of the conscious creator. "How do I show up on social media and grow my brand in this unconscious landscape, as a conscious person becoming more and more conscious by the day??!?!?" Nothing worked... Everything felt like an uphill battle. I did more ceremonies, more breathwork, more high ticket masterminds, but non of it gave me a clear path out. For 5 years I was stuck in this realm. Of confusion and suffering. Of not knowing what the fucking is happening with my life, or where I was going. Confused with my brand and business. My energy levels was all over the place. Sometimes the only way to get through a team meeting was to snort a line of Ritalin or coke.