Each question posed here points to the maturity of each person that starts that walk with the Lord. Once young and full of self awareness rather than being aware of the need for a relationship to learn to trust Him, to desire His ways and not the world views and ways. As we grow we do focus on the plan we lay out for our life when we don’t have that deep relationship. It’s only through spiritual maturity sewn together with the Love of our Father that we can see these differences. Stay humble and walk along side our Father and listen to His teachings, that is how we learn that this relationship works both ways.

In my youth I used to say “the worst thing a person can do to me is ignore me”, that sums up the spirit of rejection and shame. I didn’t know at the time why I felt that way being the tender age of 12-16 in literally an unwanted family of unknown reasons . Now I understand that the enemy was making every vain attempt to get me to by his lie of sin, shame and rejection. Gods healing didn’t happen over night it happened when I was ready to receive through faith that I was worth saving, I was worth more than the representation of rejection , shame and unwanted mess. The journey of deep healing continues daily when I saw it, I understood then that the enemy has lost his power over me in that area of my life.

What areas of my life feels insufficient right now? I was having this conversation with a friend of mine a few minutes ago. I need to communicate better. Meaning I need to speak Gods truth timely and at His motivation and unction. Sometimes I miss it, sometimes I stay quiet when I should have spoken, sometimes I say too much when silence would have filled in the missing words. I need to make repentance quicker on my lips and mean it so I am not caught off guard and tempted to by the trap or lie the enemy has set for me.

Without His authority there would be utter chaos. Without faith there is no hope. He is teaching, guiding and trusting us to do as we were created to do with the ultimate daily and moment goal of giving him all glory and honor for his free gift of authority.

I am glad you brought this up because that has been a topic between the Holy Spirit and myself. There are times in my life where the same events keep popping up with no change in sight and my desire to extend grace is diminished because of the lack of fruit. So I have to reexamine this almost every day.

@Charlene Tucker agreed and thank you