It has taken me a bit to get to this race reflection. I have been struggling over the past 2 weeks to come up with the words to describe how I felt, and my take aways from the race. I finally got to connect with Goldstein this morning and continue my clarity for this experience. From a pure race perspective... I set a freaking 50 min PR and the conditions were far from perfect. 3 Foot Rolling White Caps on the swim, 95 degree sunny heat on the run.. But it was exactly how it was supposed to be. It was the perfect culmination of the truth is in the training. The past 6 months leading up to the race have been far from ideal conditions. My dad diagnosed with a rare cancer, my cousin diagnosed with Thyroid Cancer (treated and gotten the all clear), my father in law getting diagnosed with colorectal cancer, and becoming a new dad. Far from ideal circumstances to train for another major race. And that didn't include the fact that my dad planned to host 70 people at the house the weekend of the race for a Billy Joel Cover artist. I had every excuse in the book to chalk this race up as a loss, and throw in the towel before it even started. But... This year was different. I had a plan. It was Saturday before the race, I went for a 30 min ride and came up with my mantra for the race -- "Calm and Confident". I knew what I had to do, I knew that I could do it.. no matter what got thrown my way. The day before the race I felt this calmness come over me, I just felt great. I had shown up for myself, my family, my wife, and my daughter for the past month, and I knew that the race was going to be a pure celebration. A smile on my face from beginning to end, no matter the circumstance. And that is exactly how it turned out. I trained for 7 minutes in open water this year. No... Turning my head into a 3 foot roller was not something I had practiced, but I adjusted on the fly. I took a punch and realized that I needed to sight every breath or go into a breast stroke to catch my breath, but keep moving forward. Slower than last year, but we got it done, and i felt SO STRONG the whole time. There was never a doubt.