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Another great call in the Q&A this week discussing Medication and our relationship with a diagnosis or label. How to use journaling to support your practice and we discussed the most important thing NOT to do when you are doing this work. All Q&A calls can be found in the FAQ section of the classroom. https://www.skool.com/the-lighthouse-project/classroom/852281d5?md=5c7720a13e654537b941c977bb37e43a Once again, I want to reiterate that the destination of presence, peace and authenticity is available to everyone. All you have to do is keep logging in, turn up for yourself and reach out for support when you need it and you WILL get there. I have spoken to some that have given up already, never reaching out or turning up. Don't be that guy, you deserve better.

As recent major life events have been happening in my world recently, new home, surprise big bills, second baby on the way, I had a bit of a shift internally. It was subtle enough over a few days or maybe a week... my inner dialogue became destructive. It was effecting meditations, and being projected onto others. Genuine classic "this isn't working, am I doing this right? I'm not good at this. What's the point tonight?" It goes on, and on, and on... The way I show up for my actual son was turning into how I was showing up for my inner child during meditation. Getting impatient, I could be more kind, probably not comforting or mindful at times. And I have experienced this before, I'll always be transparent and open with you men here because it's the truth! Showing up for yourself, your inner dialogue plays a very important roll. So what shows up for me tonight? Anger and scared. I spent a long time traveling the US to follow a career path that I thought I wanted, ended up with my dream job in San Francisco, to be washed out by a few men that destroyed all self confidence that I had and bullied me on a personal level. I fought through that for as long as I could until I simply couldn't handle it anymore, so tonight during meditation I came face to face with those men, I DID NOT WANT TO BE IN THAT MOMENT the feelings were so uncomfortable. So I stayed for as long as I could until the emotions felt they had calmed down 5-7 minutes? And made my intentions known to younger me which ended with "I'll be back tomorrow". * Join the calls gents *

3. Exhausted - Feelings of exhaustion were quite common for me. There is still and underlying feeling that it is not ok to just sit around. When I feel into this I remember my father calling me lazy. I think of how most mornings he was already on his way to work by the time I'd get up. I was lucky to see him in the evening before bed. My mum would always have something in the oven for him but he rarely shared a meal with us. These passed moments make it hard at times to just sit and rest. I always had to be doing something learning something whether reading or listening to podcasts. It's not that I don't enjoy it but I really have to sit and tell myself it is OK to rest. Not only OK but necessary. When I left my 9-5 as a primary school teacher to learn day trading this became even more important as I was able to work nearly 24 hours a day (Forex markets don't sleep and neither was I). This did mean I had a lot of time with my young boys. Again another area that I had to step in and slow myself down as they got used to having constant access to me I had to be the one who put up the barriers and find time and space for myself. I now priortise sleep above everything. I go to bed at the same time as my children. This means I am up hours before them allowing me time and space each morning for myself before they are up and we start homeschooling. Golf has also been a huge improvement for my well-being. I am technically doing something but have learnt to really sink into the present moment while waiting for my shot and connect with nature and the people I am playing with. I have also had to accept that I am not going to learn everything in this life time and that too is ok.

After years of doing what I thought I should do or what I believed others wanted me to do, I am now looking at how I can put myself first. Not in a selfish, me, me, all me way but in a way that honors me as much as I honor those around me. I have been, like many, very hard on myself, comparing myself and my progress in life to others. I have had and continue to have problems with my own self worth like I somehow don't deserve my dream life and that I should compromise my desires for others. I am done with this now. I did not feel my relationship was as fulfilling and as reciprocal as I deserve. I am looking for mutual love with someone I can fully share both my light and dark side with. I am looking for a career that excites and fuels me while not only paying the bills but allows me to live in full abundance allowing me to use the overflow to help those around me.