My Story — and Why I Am Who I Am Today I grew up in a small village, a free, carefree child—always in the forest, between fields, and up in fruit trees. I loved discovering, observing, and losing myself in nature.I was raised in a Christian family, prayed regularly, and spoke to God. Home was warm and loving. Part of my childhood unfolded at medieval fairs, with cannons, fire kitchens, and a great sense of freedom. I was allowed to be among the adults—listening, learning, trying out crafts. There was singing, dancing, and playing with fire—there I felt freer than anywhere else. When I was seven, a very close friend died. In that moment, the world I had known was shaken. Panic attacks and deep fears became constant companions. My body trembled, my heart raced, and I felt as if I might die at any moment.The illusion of control crumbled. I understood: life ends—sometimes much sooner than we think. Children die, too. This certainty did something to me that I could no longer push away. I tried to ignore the fear. During the day, play and bustle distracted me. At night, alone in bed, it returned—the fear of death. My mother did her best, yet I felt her worry and helplessness. So I kept my fears more and more to myself. I began asking God questions: Who are you? Are you there? Do you protect me? I asked because I knew no other way.From the fear grew psychological strain, self-doubt, and resignation. I withdrew and spent much of my childhood and youth alone. With the onset of puberty came a phase of inner numbness. I cried a lot, felt unloved, and was convinced I would always be alone.When I started my vocational training, a new environment brought the chance for a fresh start. I found friendships, joy in life, and could finally be who I truly was again. In the course of that, I visited a place called Taizé, which fundamentally changed my view of religion and faith. That time was full of self-reflection and personal development, which deeply influenced my growth.

I’ve been sitting and reflecting a lot with the intention of showing up more authentically in this space. Not just as a facilitator but more so as someone walking this path together with everyone. Learning, sharing, pushing past barriers and so I finally want to share a piece of my story, from a place inside me that finally feels safe to be seen. For most of my life (like many of us) I have felt like I dont belong. Growing up I was always too tall, too big, too sensitive, too different. Bullied in school, disconnected and ashamed of my body, constantly morphing myself to be liked. I learnt early on to hide and shrink the parts of me that didn’t fit in, that this was the safest way to exist. As I got older, I searched for belonging through parties, substances, relationships, and performance. From the outside, everything looked good in my life. I traveled, was part of groups of friends, and was out having fun. But inside I felt so lost and scared. I was constantly anxious, felt dark and depressed and had no idea who I really was. completely disconnected. There have been a few different times over the last 15 years where deep rooted and repressed memories and emotions have rose to the surface. And at some point the things I was using to escape and run from what was coming up, stopped working or sent me even further into a terrifying darkness. Patterns kept repeating, and the emptiness I felt was completely swallowing me and my life. It was at a point in 2019 where I was really forced to look at myself and make the decisions to choose myself and my healing. I came home to Ireland, just before covid hit. But it wasn’t just moving back home to my parents, it was the beginning of something a lot deeper. I began to turn to nature. Walking barefoot, crying, singing, sitting. Nature held me when nothing else could. Just being in the hills, in the rain, wind, (sometimes) sun and letting my body feel and start to move everything that I had been holding in and onto. I began deepening my daily practices- breathing, journaling, moving my body and pulling oracle cards. I began expressing my creativity through making, learning and mixing music. Something inside me began to wake up and I began to feel more connected to myself, my life, and the divine.

The Women's Circle today was so beautiful and nourishing and expansive. Thank you, @Sarah Connolly, for sharing your wisdom and coherence with us. There were so many pieces of gold and aha moments in what you spoke to regarding the symptoms and journey of walking through the Death and Rebirth process that our souls came here to experience - what an incredibly potent transmission! 🔥 For those of you who joined us, what was your biggest takeaway? Share with us below. For those of you who did not attend, the replay has been uploaded so you can soak in this wisdom as well. You can find that under the Classroom tab > Weekly Call Replays > Women's Circles. Looking forward to sitting in circle with you all next month! 💜

In April this year, a close friend of mine passed away. He was only in his mid 30s and has so much more life to give... He had introduced me to Bali 2 years prior, and we traveled across the Island. One of the main things he was focused on, with all his businesses and work, was giving back. He donated 10% of all his profits to charity. Every Friday he would go to the Yayasan Widyaguna school for mentally disabled children in Bali. Children that get no government support or funding, often outcast by their familines. In the name of Aren, and carrying his light forward, we hosted an event yesterday bringing together over 100+ people, to raise money for this school. to build a rehabilitation center for these kids to have more opportunity for growth. The fundraiser was at $17,000 before yesterday, and today it's 63% towards the target of raising $100k. So thank you to all who supported and donated. And if you want to support and donate, you can do so here: https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-build-a-healing-center-for-disabled-children-in-bali And may this also serve as a reminder to us all, to weave in the art of giving back, into our professional and also personal lives, beyond just working on the self. PS: The kids were very happy, and the dance off was LIT! Big love to all of you, Thor & Team 💛

Super excited to announce this! Moving forward, every other Tuesday, my business partners Leo Armaad and David Hans-Barker will be leading a Meditation and Truth Talk Live Zoom call. This call will a deep dive conversation between Dave and Leo on spicy, bold and vulnerable topics that are very alive in the collective consciousness. There will also be a group meditation at the beginning and end. JOIN US IN PERSON? All of these Live calls will also be happening as an Event in Person at The Istana in Uluwatu, Bali. Anyone in this community will be able to join this Truth Talk & Meditation for free in person, which also includes free spa access after the truth talk. 📆 8pm Bali Time, Bi-Weekly on Tuesday. 📍 Zoom, or Live at The Istana, Uluwatu, Bali. Zoom: https://us02web.zoom.us/j/87599269183?pwd=FLWux2RStaAJgNhDeR1nCez8SyWzow.1 (Call time also found in Calendar for Community Members) Big love!