Breakthrough Story And Why I’m Here With You All

I’ve been sitting and reflecting a lot with the intention of showing up more authentically in this space. Not just as a facilitator but more so as someone walking this path together with everyone. Learning, sharing, pushing past barriers and so I finally want to share a piece of my story, from a place inside me that finally feels safe to be seen.

For most of my life (like many of us) I have felt like I dont belong.

Growing up I was always too tall, too big, too sensitive, too different. Bullied in school, disconnected and ashamed of my body, constantly morphing myself to be liked. I learnt early on to hide and shrink the parts of me that didn’t fit in, that this was the safest way to exist.

As I got older, I searched for belonging through parties, substances, relationships, and performance. From the outside, everything looked good in my life. I traveled, was part of groups of friends, and was out having fun. But inside I felt so lost and scared. I was constantly anxious, felt dark and depressed and had no idea who I really was. completely disconnected.

There have been a few different times over the last 15 years where deep rooted and repressed memories and emotions have rose to the surface. And at some point the things I was using to escape and run from what was coming up, stopped working or sent me even further into a terrifying darkness. Patterns kept repeating, and the emptiness I felt was completely swallowing me and my life. It was at a point in 2019 where I was really forced to look at myself and make the decisions to choose myself and my healing.

I came home to Ireland, just before covid hit. But it wasn’t just moving back home to my parents, it was the beginning of something a lot deeper.

I began to turn to nature. Walking barefoot, crying, singing, sitting. Nature held me when nothing else could. Just being in the hills, in the rain, wind, (sometimes) sun and letting my body feel and start to move everything that I had been holding in and onto. I began deepening my daily practices- breathing, journaling, moving my body and pulling oracle cards. I began expressing my creativity through making, learning and mixing music. Something inside me began to wake up and I began to feel more connected to myself, my life, and the divine.

This was the true beginning of my remembering.

The path never has been and never will be linear. (Not for any of us)

I travelled more, fell in love, lost love, got incredibly lost again, spiraled again, rebuilt again. Morocco cracked me open. Spain humbled me. Holistic practices, movement and community started to ground me and bring me back to myself.

There were and are moments I abandon myself, moments I forget everything I’ve learned, moments I dont know how to choose better. But each time, the truth keeps presenting itself to me in many magical ways. And the message is clearer and clearer each time;

“Come home to your body. Your softness is your strength. The medicine your seeking is within.”

My breakthrough hasn't been a single moment. Its been a series of decisions.

A decision to stop outsourcing my worth. A decision to actually trust what my body and connection to somthing bigger than myself was telling me. A decision to quit the jobs that drained me, leave environments that dulled me, and say yes to the opportunities that felt like a fullbody YES.

Which is how I ended up in this present moment... living in Spain, working online in a way that aligns with my heart and sets my soul on fireee and stepping into communities like this one with more clarity and confidence than Ive ever had.

And now… I’m here to serve.

Not from a place of being completely ready or because im finished with my own healing journey (faaaarrr from it) but because I’ve walked through the deep depths of darkness, through self-abandonment and found my way back. Because I know what it feels like to want depth, connection and realness but only knowing chaos. Because I know what it feels like to be completely disconnected from your body, mind and soul and to remember what it means to actually feel again. And because I truly believe all of our stories and journeys are sacred tools for connection and leadership.

My purpose now is to help others come home to themselves —their bodies, their breath, their intuition, their nervous system, their truth. We are here to honor our humanness not eliminate it.

So here I am.

Showing up. Opening up. Practicing what I’m here to teach.

I’m excited to connect with you all more deeply. To ask questions, to support your shares, to witness your breakthroughs, and to keep sharing mine as they unfold.Thank you for being a space where authenticity actually feels safe.I’m soooo grateful to be here with you.Let’s grow together. ✨

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