@Linda Trup When I mess up with anything, I close down, go into a shell... If I dont talk about my failures, then you guys don't know about them and then you can't laugh or judge me"... It is a lonely world though... I feel like people should only see the good and if I can't show that in the moment then you shouldn't see anything... I have always said to myself "If you don't have friends, then you won't have to worry about people leaving you or judging you"... I am great at talking to strangers, people on the street but don't let anyone too close bc then you get hurt.... So people see me as super out going, dorky, funny (well they laugh bc I make ridicules faces and say really weird things), everyone thinks they know everything about my life bc I love to talk BUT talking does not equal to what is really going on... Im good at letting people see what they want to see and hide away the rest.....