Can We Talk About Charging Our Worth Without Feeling Bad?

So, I’m just going to be honest here...and I’m wondering if anyone else here has gone through this too.😅

I want to support my family. I want to do work I love. I want to build something meaningful that I’m proud of… something that actually helps people.

But every time it comes down to actually charging for the work I do, it just doesn't go the way I want it to.

I keep finding myself in situations where I’m doing good work, and I know it’s good work, but the people who want the work done either can’t pay, or they say “later,” or they keep pushing it off, or they expect things now while the payment is eventually. And I get it. I really do. Life is life. I have grace for people. I know what it’s like to struggle.

But at the same time, I’m like… okay but I also have bills? I also have children? I also need to live?

And the part that messes with my head is that I start feeling guilty for even thinking that way. Like I’m supposed to just keep giving, keep holding it together, keep pouring out, keep being “understanding.”

But understanding doesn’t pay rent. And compassion doesn’t keep the lights on. And yet… I still feel guilty saying that.

And I’m just sitting here asking myself, why? Why do I feel bad for wanting to be compensated for something I’m actually doing?

Is it boundaries?

Is it confidence?

Is it conditioning?

Is it just this season?

I honestly don’t know.

So I’m asking...does anyone else deal with this?

That tug-of-war between wanting to do good work and wanting to be kind… but also wanting to not drown?

If you’ve figured out how to navigate that, I’m listening.

If you’re in it, I see you. 💕

Just… tell me I’m not the only one.😭