We teach others how to treat us by how we treat ourselves 💕 - @Christine Knight IFS

One of my Chrisisms that I repeat over & over to myself: 💕 we teach others how to treat us by how we treat ourselves 💕 - @Christine Knight IFS

Hi everyone, my name is Betty. Im sort of freaking out and I'm going to be brutally honest, I flat out do not know what to do. Well first I need to say I'm not 100% sure why I joined this community. I know music for me is a way of life. It's in my bones. I'm no professional or practicing musician in anyway. I do however feel every beat in every bone in my body. Whatever I do, I'm doing it to a beat. I am a very basic 53 year old divorced woman living in a trailer park with my 30 year old son. I'm on disability for anxiety and PTSD, and they diagnosed me schizo affective but I think they are wrong and that I'm actually adult with ADHD. I'm social in the park, take care of my home and my son, as much as he lets me. I have 3 cats, mother lilyth and her boys, Riff & Raff. I own my trailer. I'm able to pay my bills, with my son's help, and there's necessities. I'm a crafter of sorts and have a multitude of what I call toys to play with. I have nothing to complain about and everything to be grateful for. There has been a tugging inside me for some time now to do something with my life that makes other people's lives better. I've signed up to return to school several times even starting one online university 2 years ago. When the monthly payment for the balance my financial aid didn't came due, I quit. I couldn't afford it. I was couch surfing at that time and had been that whole previous year. Homeless for the first time at 50. Here I go starting online school again. Same major, Business Administration. The online part for me is scary enough by itself. I'm not IT literate. I know nothing other than how to type. I can look stuff up online and I've played with quite a few of the photo editors bug that is the extent of my smart phone/tablet experience. I have absolutely no computer experience. I have seen a lot of posts talking about Python and coding. With this being an AI school am I going to need to read and write code? I just found out today I have to learn ai language and that I need to talk to it a specific way to get the proper answer, solution or advice...I'm sure y'all have heard of Ebonics. Well, I speak Bettibonics and I have a hard time learning a new language. I took Spanish for three years and can only count to 100, ask what time it is and tell you my name. How am I going to be able to grasp all this?? I already have to write things down so I'll remember them but then I have to remember where I put it. I didn't know that platform I would be using would be the skool app until last night. If it was discussed when I talked to maestro, I don't remember. I just don't know. I know exactly what I want to do. I have a very specific goal I am trying to reach. Technology is a major part of our lives and it totally disgusts me in so many ways. I hate it with a passion but still feel lost without my phone. Talk about being a hypocrite . The proud ignorance has turned to shameful ignorance that hopefully will be enlightened. Read posts and comment on them. So far that has been the extent of any guidance as to what is going on. How is this going to teach me what I need to know to do what I want to do. I just don't know.