hi so my names hannah i'm 38 i'm diagnosed adhd autistic and BPD. (borderline personality disorder) body dismorphia, anxiety/social anxiety, depression, binge eating disorder. i have struggled with my mental health pretty much my whole life and any relationship i've had was always toxic and chaotic. my sons dad left us when he was two after that i didn't have a relationship only 'fun' i've stayed single for pretty much 17 years and done my best to work on myself. my binge eating disorder resulted in me getting to 345lb and developing diabetes. my mental health got to the point i didn't leave the house. so i've worked really hard i've lost 182lb i've had counciling learnt to look after my self better, to have a better understanding of myself and my struggles. so after being on my own for so long i decided i felt ready to start dating. i felt i can be more open and honest about my issues and so on. over the years i've been on dating sites etc but never really clicked with anyone. so i get a match with someone on hinge and we started taking about a band we both love. he sent me his number and said due to his work it's easier to text. he made it very clear from the beginning that he had a good job and earnt good money for me this is not important but it made me feel uncomfortable as my income is not great i am my sons full time carer due to his disability's. so it put me off from replying when he asked me what i did for a living. he also made it clear that he works monday to friday and sleeps in his truck so we would only get to see each other on weekends which i was absolutely fine with. a couple days later i was talking to my friend i had told her i had got talking to this guy but i hadn't replied because of my concerns to being judged she said to me that i shouldn't do that and let him be the judge. so i replied and his response was not what i was expecting. he said that i should be proud of myself that is can't be easy etc, this made me feel safe and comfortable and from then on we got talking every day for hours and got really close.