So I created meditations for before and after you work on the journaling prompts.. I just need to know whether or not you enjoy them or not because I have not recorded ones for chapter 4 and on. If nobody utilizes them I'm not going to worry about it but if you do I will. Please be honest about what you need not about what you think I should or should not do.

Today I made a choice that wasn’t easy, but it was necessary. I blocked someone I have spent years begging for a relationship with. Not out of anger — but out of self-preservation. Repeated rejection teaches the nervous system to abandon itself, and that’s a pattern I’m done carrying. I also removed my daughter from social media after she blocked my phone number. Not as punishment. Not as control. Simply as a boundary. If she wants to reach me, she knows how — through direct, human communication. Not through apps, not through surveillance, not through indirect access to my life. This is shadow work in real time: • choosing dignity over desperation • choosing clarity over confusion • choosing peace over proximity Boundaries aren’t walls. They’re doors with rules. And sometimes the rule is: you don’t get access to me if you won’t meet me honestly. If this post brings anything up for you — sit with it. Ask yourself where you’re still chasing connection at the cost of your own nervous system. That’s where the work is. 🧡

Once upon a time, for a short period of time I delivered pizzas to make a living. And this one time I went to this pretty nice house, and when I rang the bell, nobody answered. I could hear someone outside in the back so I kinda walked around to see if I could bring this food to the back, maybe they didn’t hear me. But it was all fenced in and I could hear a guy talking on the phone, “yeah he’s at the bar….” I didn’t really want to call out to the guy, sounded like he was upset. So I went back to the front and was just going to leave the pizza at the door if they weren’t going to answer… But these two kids, probably 7 and 9, come out and kinda sit down on the front steps looking real bummed. They take the pizza and one of them says, “sorry, our mom was going to tip you, but she’s out looking for our dad and she’s not back yet.” I just told the kids, “don’t worry about it, you guys good?” They kinda sigh and say, “yeah our uncle’s here, and she should be home soon.” So I say okay, tell them to get some of that food while it’s good and hot. And I go back to work. This little window into the home lives of others really put some things into perspective for me. Because I didn’t know these people, but I from being a bartender for a handful of years and just living life, I know this story. But it gave me the perspective of the kids. Their mom was so worried/angry about the dad not showing up for her kids, that she left them to go hunt this man down and tell him how to be a better parent. But what if she didn’t get so caught up in how this man was lacking, and just had a nice dinner with her kids. Sure dad would have missed out, but that’s his loss. That’s his choice. Her making the same choice for different reasons didn’t get these kids a hot meal with either of their parents that night. And it got me to thinking, how many times I allowed myself to get so angry that someone wasn’t doing something for my kid, that I got totally distracted and ended up failing to show up myself.

Hey hey beautiful souls, I just wanted to attach what I listen to at night time when I go to sleep. Minds in Unison by Thomas Hall. This is his hypnosis play list and he's got ones for all kinds of different things. Remember these will work differently for everyone. I listen to them religiously. I listen to the same one for a minimum of one month. Every single night. Some ppl will notice results within days and some weeks. Hope this helps at least one of you <3 Stop Smoking Lose Weight Fast Anxiety & Depression Motivation for Everything Confidence with People Ultimate Life Success Stop Worrying & Be Happy Stop Panic & Anxiety https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLy7Xfe1kbj622T47tnHq_lDLT2ZaTQlAq&si=lIFDilN6RJMqQGui

Hey everyone 👋💛 I wanted to share a real update about what’s been happening behind the scenes, because the last couple of weeks have shifted a lot for me.... not in a chaotic way, but in a clarifying, soul-level way. Yesterday, I finished the giveaway for the five Shadow Work courses someone had generously paid for. After they messaged me to ask if the giveaway was done, then they asked, “Okay, how many people are still left who wanted it?” And then they paid for the rest. Just like that. Across a couple weeks, this one soul bought six copies first… and then five more… for a total of ELEVEN people now doing the course because of their generosity. That did something to me. Not in an ego way. In a grounding way. It reminded me that people see this work. People value it. People believe in what I’m building...even if the internet sometimes doesn’t understand me. And that shift… it inspired me to do something unexpected. Instead of matching negativity with negativity, I reached out to a very toxic person. Not to argue. Not to rebuttal. Not to “win.” But because once I actually ran her charts, read her book, and got a deeper look beneath the social media performance… I finally saw the soul. The wounds. The patterns. The parts of her that reminded me of things I’ve lived through too. I saw the tinge. That little flicker under all the armour. Most people think she’s “unfixable.” But I’ve never believed that about anyone...not her, not my mother, not the parts of myself I used to run from. And once that belief clicked into place, I reached out. Not to save her, but to offer one honest moment of humanity. And then… I felt pulled to reach out to my mom too. Someone who has been a huge source of trauma my entire life. Someone I’ve tried to heal things with many times. Someone whose wounds keep revealing new layers no matter how much work I’ve already done. Reaching out wasn’t about reopening old pain...it was about meeting my shadows from a new level of awareness. About proving to myself that I can look at the hardest connections in my life without collapsing, shutting down, or losing myself.