Hey everyone 👋💛
I wanted to share a real update about what’s been happening behind the scenes, because the last couple of weeks have shifted a lot for me.... not in a chaotic way, but in a clarifying, soul-level way.
Yesterday, I finished the giveaway for the five Shadow Work courses someone had generously paid for. After they messaged me to ask if the giveaway was done, then they asked,
“Okay, how many people are still left who wanted it?”
And then they paid for the rest.
Just like that.
Across a couple weeks, this one soul bought six copies first… and then five more… for a total of ELEVEN people now doing the course because of their generosity.
That did something to me.
Not in an ego way.
In a grounding way.
It reminded me that people see this work.
People value it.
People believe in what I’m building...even if the internet sometimes doesn’t understand me.
And that shift… it inspired me to do something unexpected.
Instead of matching negativity with negativity, I reached out to a very toxic person.
Not to argue.
Not to rebuttal.
Not to “win.”
But because once I actually ran her charts, read her book, and got a deeper look beneath the social media performance… I finally saw the soul.
The wounds.
The patterns.
The parts of her that reminded me of things I’ve lived through too.
I saw the tinge.
That little flicker under all the armour.
Most people think she’s “unfixable.”
But I’ve never believed that about anyone...not her, not my mother, not the parts of myself I used to run from. And once that belief clicked into place, I reached out. Not to save her, but to offer one honest moment of humanity.
And then… I felt pulled to reach out to my mom too.
Someone who has been a huge source of trauma my entire life.
Someone I’ve tried to heal things with many times.
Someone whose wounds keep revealing new layers no matter how much work I’ve already done.
Reaching out wasn’t about reopening old pain...it was about meeting my shadows from a new level of awareness. About proving to myself that I can look at the hardest connections in my life without collapsing, shutting down, or losing myself.
The gifted courses…
The clarity about the toxic person…
The choice to face things with my mom again…
It all reminded me of something important:
I’m not here to be liked.
I’m not here to stay “safe.”
I’m here to hold mirrors, even for the people others call impossible.
And I’m here to walk my own shadow work just as deeply as I ask all of you to walk yours.
So if you’re working through the course, let me know how it’s going.
If you’re new because of the giveaway, welcome in...seriously. 🧡🧡🧡
If you’re struggling with your own hard relationships, you’re not alone.
This community is important to me.
Your growth is important to me.
And my own evolution?
I’m right in it with you.
🧡🧡🧡
Beans