Yesterday I came to an understanding that the thought of being cast back to what made the old version of me so abhorrent to me was capable of causing very real harm to the new version of me.
Such was my drive and passion to move forward, the demands I placed on myself caused actual physical harm. The hatred for what I used to be manifested itself in an unreasonable drive to get away as fast as possible and to keep running hard daily. I set myself huge targets and bench marks.
Yesterday my body gave me a warning shot. Fortunately my head is in a great place to respond after the fog cleared. It reminded me how far Ive come and that I have to place head and physical factors together to form the complete picture. It forced me to reevaluate my approach to a more tempered and sustainable tempo.
Its a never ending learning process in which I must listen to the signals from within with kindness and understanding. It's a great journey and a wonderful education when you make these self discoveries and form strategies to manage situations. Never forgetting that there are others to help along the way and not to be a solo warrior.