It's a difficult concept and depends entierly how you quantify the subject you're thinking about. When my stomach feels full, when my legs ache, when I'm so tired I can't keep my eyes open, when I've watched the last episode etc etc. Two main variables come into mind, what's avaliable and where you draw your line on limitations. People have different self imposed limitations springing from experience and motivation. How many people have we seen that call it a day because of self imposed limitations and we know full well they are capeable of more. The journey towards a better you is filled with these limitations but the one thing that many fail to understand is that the boundaries on limitations can and do move if you put the effort in. When I lost 55kg, it would have been simple to say, that's enough and indeed that result was more than I, at one time, could ever imagine achieving. Had I listened to those around me who we held captive to their limitations, I would indeed have happily stopped there. BUT, I made one important discovery, when I gave my boundaries a nudge, they moved. All of a sudden, the boundaries started to receede and a whole new world of possibilities opened up. I began to see what might be possible and was damned if I was going to stop my journey at that point. An insatiable desire took over to find out where, or even if I had any limitations. The understanding thatr boundaries are temporary and CAN be moved. The only question that remained in my mind was how fast the journey was going to be towards the next boundary. So when you think you've come up against one of those boundaries in whatever sphere, look beyond. Don't just think about what is possible now, but look into the future at what can be created down the road once you have pushed back again. The only limits that are permanent are those that you give head space for and allow to dictate your actions. Remember, it doesn't have to be earth shattering movements, remember the saying how do you eat an elephant.........one bite at a time".

Yesterday I came to an understanding that the thought of being cast back to what made the old version of me so abhorrent to me was capable of causing very real harm to the new version of me. Such was my drive and passion to move forward, the demands I placed on myself caused actual physical harm. The hatred for what I used to be manifested itself in an unreasonable drive to get away as fast as possible and to keep running hard daily. I set myself huge targets and bench marks. Yesterday my body gave me a warning shot. Fortunately my head is in a great place to respond after the fog cleared. It reminded me how far Ive come and that I have to place head and physical factors together to form the complete picture. It forced me to reevaluate my approach to a more tempered and sustainable tempo. Its a never ending learning process in which I must listen to the signals from within with kindness and understanding. It's a great journey and a wonderful education when you make these self discoveries and form strategies to manage situations. Never forgetting that there are others to help along the way and not to be a solo warrior.

I didn’t sleep last night……too many things running through my head. I met my sister for the first time last night…. It was great to meet her and sit and talk to what happened to us both….i gave her a cuddle and it was like we had known each other forever! The old me wasn’t capable of meeting her as he was too angry and lost in the past….new me welcomed the moment and it’s helping me grow into the man I know is waiting….. If you have things from the past that haunt you…..face them head on! This was the same situation last week when I also met my brother for the first time. Control your chaos…..don’t let it control you

Right… I’m gonna be straight with you. Recently I had to face something from my past. The sort of situation that years ago would’ve sent me straight back into anger, defensiveness, and survival mode before it had even started. Old me would’ve walked in looking for a fight. Not always physically… but mentally, emotionally… ready to bite back, ready to protect myself, ready for it to go wrong. But this time… I walked in calm. No chest tightening.No scanning the room.No planning exit routes in my head like I used to. Just walked in, listened, had the conversation, and walked out knowing one thing… I’m not that bloke anymore. And that hit me hard on the drive home. Because there was a time in my life where anger felt like armour. It felt like protection. It got me through some dark shit… and if I’m honest, it probably kept me standing when I didn’t have much else. But it also controlled me.It made decisions for me.It made everything look like a threat. And facing this situation showed me something massive… You don’t delete the man you used to be.You don’t pretend he never existed. You respect him… because he got you through the storms. But he doesn’t get to drive anymore. These days that version of me is still there… still strong… still capable… He’s just the bodyguard now. Not the boss. I’m grateful to the man I was…But I’m fully committed to the man I’m becoming. And lads… that version isn’t perfect. He’s not finished. But he’s calmer, stronger, and doesn’t quit on himself when life gets heavy. If you’re battling stuff from your past right now, hear this… You are NOT stuck with who you were. You’re allowed to outgrow it.You’re allowed to rebuild.You’re allowed to become dangerous in the right ways… disciplined… controlled… steady. And the day you realise you handled something differently than the old you would’ve… That’s a powerful moment. Keep doing the work. It’s worth it.

We all secretly know deep down when we are broken but just don't have the energy or will power to break out. Perhaps the thought of stepping outside ourselves is too much. Maybe too many "what if's". It seems easier to stay in our asigned lane and tough it out, after all that's what everyone else does right? It's only when something knocks us sideways to such an extent that we cannot deny that we are broken and have no alternative but to reach for the "fuck it" button and pound that mother. Once you identify your reason and/or purpose, opportunities to make changes suddenly magically appear. In all truth they were always there but we weren't ready to see them. Maybe they nag at us for weeks or months but slowly and inexorably draw us to the decision point. It becomes do or die. Sadly for so many it becomes die and they quietly slip away mentally never to return until claimed by ill health and/or apathy. For a select few that are willing to open their minds, (some may say selfeshly) and reclaim what was once theirs, or start a new version of themselves that they never had, they explode into a frenzy of lets get it done. That motivation doesn't last forever as life has a habit of trying to reclaim you. Your "friends" don't see the point in you fighting what they see as your place. The only way to plot a lasting and fruitful course is to set yourself some goals, I call them "life's waypoints", those little markers that signify that you have moved forwards, hit a goal and are ready for the next. These little achievments become the catalyst for the next and so on. It becomes a routine, a non negotiable. Once you step onto that path with meaning and true intent, the deal is already as good as done. Then it needs action to make it happen. Achievment is its own motivation, you set up a converyor belt which feeds you. You can become that new version of you, you do it not only for yourself, but to be better for those around you that will become your champions. Whatever you want to call it.....purpose.......reason, it should be something that drives you and lights a fire under your ass. Once you normalise this, you will be hard pressed to go back to the old you because you, like others will treat the old you with distain.