“Where am I the problem?” Not coming from a commitment to shame, but rather it comes from a commitment to LOVE and TRUTH. As an empath, my first reflex is to look inward before I look outward. I replay the conversation. I audit my tone. I search for what I missed. And sometimes that’s wisdom… but other times it can be a Traume-Trained Habit… “If I can find the flaw in me fast enough, maybe I can prevent rejection, conflict, or abandonment.” Carl Jung describes a four-stage evolution of the inner feminine from Eve, to Helen, to the mother Mary, and then Sophia. Eve is survival and attachment. Helen is projection and idealization. Mary is devotion and value. But Sophia is the integrated wisdom: the inner guide that can hold complexity without collapsing into self-blame. And I think this question, “how am I the problem?“ is a Sophia question… when it’s asked with love. NOT “What’s wrong with me?” But rather, “Where am I abandoning myself? “Where am I over-functioning?” Where am I trying to EARN safety by TAKING ALL the responsibility?” Sophia leads us through what I can only describe as a “Passover the place dark waters,” the crossing where we stop confusing empathy with self-erasure. Where we stop calling self-betrayal “being understanding.” Where we let truth be the thing that saves us, even when it costs us comfort. So yes, I still ask myself if I am the problem. I’m learning to ask it differently. “Where am I unconsciously participating in the pattern through over-responsibility, rescuing, mind-reading, or abandoning my own needs?” Instead of condemning myself… I am choosing to COME HOME to myself. AMMN 🙏🏻🐞🌻🕊️🌈🫶🏻

We will be revisiting week 14 as we prepare for the next meeting on Thursday for the 52-week Bible study group. Sending love and prayers.

Daylight savings time changes things up. Bible study is now 8pm Az-PST /9 pm MST

Week 2, Day one scripture from John 3:16 says, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life." Questions for reflection on this in the journal include: 1. Think of 3 people who are difficult to love - what one specific act of kindness could you show to each of them this week? 2. When did you last feel deeply loved by God? Set aside 15 minutes this week to revisit that memory and write down how it changed your perspective; and 3. How could you demonstrate God's unconditional love to someone in your family this week, especially when they might not 'deserve' it? These are very important questions, and I love how other scriptures can be brought into the conversation as we lean in and reflect on the Lord of Compassion with Love, Truth, and Forgiveness burning at the Center of Our God- Savior- Kings Watery Heart. The following Daily Scripture for week 2 are as follows: Day 2: John 4:7-8 - God IS Love Day 3: Romans 5:8 - Love through Sacrifice Day 4: Psalm 136:1-3 - God's Enduring Love Day 5: Jeremiah 31:3 - God's Everlasting Love Day 6: Ephesians 3:17-19 - Comprehending God's Love; and Day 7: 1 John 3:1 - Children of God

“In the beginning, God created…” That simple phrase from Genesis 1:1 has always resonated deeply with me since building my relationship with God, setting the tone for how I see the world and my place in it. As I moved through this first week of our 52-week Bible study, I found myself drawn to the ways God’s creative power is not only intentional but also so personal. Every sunrise, every gentle breeze, every moment spent in my garden tending to the birds and plants - these are all living testaments to God’s ongoing involvement in creation. Psalm 19:1-4 as part of our week one reading echoes in my heart: “The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands.” It’s in these quiet, mindful moments outdoors that I feel closest to the Creator, noticing how every detail in nature points back to Him. This week, we reflected on the idea of bringing more of God’s creative order into my own life and home. Technology stood out for me; how I use it in my business, the way it can either create chaos or bring clarity and structure when used with intention. During my conversations with @Stephanie Beard , we dove into the flow of energy in our homes - how the principles of Feng Shui - mirror the divine order woven into creation itself. There’s something sacred about the idea that everything has its place, and every place has its thing. When I choose decor or arrange a room, I’m not just making aesthetic decisions, but I’m working to honor the rhythm of Nature God established from the very beginning, bringing balance and beauty into the spaces where I live and work. In those same conversations, we explored human design and the unique spiritual gifts God has given each of us from the moment we took our first breath at birth. I’m a projector, Stephanie is a generator, and together we experience how God created us individually, each with a purpose that reflects His image. John 1:1-3 and Colossians 1:15-17 remind me that Christ is at the center of all creation for “all things were created through Him and for Him.” There’s a freedom and a calling in recognizing that embracing the way I am designed to guide and the way Stephanie uplifts those around her by following her joy, is truly a GOOD thing.