11d • 52-Week Bible Study
Sometimes I ask myself…
“Where am I the problem?”
Not coming from a commitment to shame, but rather it comes from a commitment to LOVE and TRUTH.
As an empath, my first reflex is to look inward before I look outward.
I replay the conversation. I audit my tone. I search for what I missed. And sometimes that’s wisdom… but other times it can be a Traume-Trained Habit…
“If I can find the flaw in me fast enough, maybe I can prevent rejection, conflict, or abandonment.”
Carl Jung describes a four-stage evolution of the inner feminine from Eve, to Helen, to the mother Mary, and then Sophia.
Eve is survival and attachment. Helen is projection and idealization. Mary is devotion and value.
But Sophia is the integrated wisdom: the inner guide that can hold complexity without collapsing into self-blame.
And I think this question, “how am I the problem?“ is a Sophia question… when it’s asked with love.
NOT “What’s wrong with me?”
But rather, “Where am I abandoning myself?
“Where am I over-functioning?”
Where am I trying to EARN safety by TAKING ALL the responsibility?”
Sophia leads us through what I can only describe as a “Passover the place dark waters,” the crossing where we stop confusing empathy with self-erasure.
Where we stop calling self-betrayal “being understanding.” Where we let truth be the thing that saves us, even when it costs us comfort.
So yes, I still ask myself if I am the problem.
I’m learning to ask it differently.
“Where am I unconsciously participating in the pattern through over-responsibility, rescuing, mind-reading, or abandoning my own needs?”
Instead of condemning myself…
I am choosing to COME HOME to myself.
AMMN 🙏🏻🐞🌻🕊️🌈🫶🏻
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