What my soul has always known
What has been coming for me today is that my soul has always known I am curious and learn about things just because I want to. My parents had to buy a set of encyclopedias from a garage sale just so I would stop asking them so many questions they couldn't answer (obviously way before the internet lol). And I am realizing in order to fit into society and excel in this game of life I started a very long time ago using this natural approach to life to "apply learning/ knowledge to make more money". Obviously this isn't bad on its own, it is helpful and great! But for me it has been an obsession-- a perfect storm I could get away with it because I was just another workaholic, and I was accepted and even rewarded with promotions! My soul is showing me right now how many times I have realized this about myself in different ways over the last 10 years and didn't really know how to change it or what it really meant-- so I kept reluctantly forgetting again. Today it looks like this: every time I get excited about something new I am learning - I spend time thinking about how I would share what I am learning or use it practically for work instead of keeping with the learning at a deeper level-- then I justify I do it because that's how the world works-- I need the promotion- or I need to get out there and be a content creator already! I have so many ideas and genuinely want to help! The shift today from the soul led question... For the first time I am also being given the context because I can handle it. I see now that I have built a foundation, a new way of being, with intention over the last couple of years that can now handle a big hit like this to my programming/ illusions - this was a specific wall keeping me from living in coherence that I wasn't seeing clearly! Knocking this wall down next aligns with recently remembering my soul's purpose is not to chase or to wait, but to become so fully what I am that what is meant for me finds its way. I am meant to live my learnings. My way. I do this for myself. Period!