The Alchemist- Re-writing the script · The Lighthouse Project

The Alchemist- Re-writing the script

As recent major life events have been happening in my world recently, new home, surprise big bills, second baby on the way, I had a bit of a shift internally. It was subtle enough over a few days or maybe a week... my inner dialogue became destructive. It was effecting meditations, and being projected onto others. Genuine classic "this isn't working, am I doing this right? I'm not good at this. What's the point tonight?" It goes on, and on, and on...

The way I show up for my actual son was turning into how I was showing up for my inner child during meditation. Getting impatient, I could be more kind, probably not comforting or mindful at times. And I have experienced this before, I'll always be transparent and open with you men here because it's the truth! Showing up for yourself, your inner dialogue plays a very important roll.

So what shows up for me tonight? Anger and scared. I spent a long time traveling the US to follow a career path that I thought I wanted, ended up with my dream job in San Francisco, to be washed out by a few men that destroyed all self confidence that I had and bullied me on a personal level. I fought through that for as long as I could until I simply couldn't handle it anymore, so tonight during meditation I came face to face with those men, I DID NOT WANT TO BE IN THAT MOMENT the feelings were so uncomfortable. So I stayed for as long as I could until the emotions felt they had calmed down 5-7 minutes? And made my intentions known to younger me which ended with "I'll be back tomorrow".

* Join the calls gents *

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