You are not who you were.
And that's worth pausing on for a second.
The version of you that didn't know what you know now. That reacted instead of responded. That had no language for what was happening inside. That just survived, because that's all there was.
That person did the best they could.
And then you learned more.
And you did better.
And you're still learning.
And you'll keep doing better.
That's not a small thing.
That's the whole thing.
Growth isn't a destination you arrive at. It's just the quiet, ongoing act of becoming someone you're a little more proud of.
You're already in it.
Keep going!