Friday July 10 · The Conquerors!!

Friday July 10

Good morning Conquerors!

How is everyone?

I am definitely going through it.. but wanted to share a couple strategies I created honestly out of pure desperation 😅:

This came to me this morning, after passing out yesterday:

SIMPLE and SLOW

Meaning, EACH step for my brain right now needs feel simple and I NEED to give myself permission to do it SLOW

The shower protocol- when I do it, it totally works. So that needs to be a non-negotiable whenever possible. Even this morning, I started crying in shower but then because the timer was set and because music was playing, I felt safe to release it a bit.

And the 5 minute protocol:

Figure out how much chronological time you have to get ready.

Break it down into how many 5-minute chunks that equates to.

Assign one step to each 5-minute chunk

I did this this morning. Instantly my brain relaxed and I felt less frozen.

I'm even still doing it now. But since I'm pretty much ready to go, I can type this (but I still have timer set so that I STAY aware of the time).

I am truly fighting to not go into a deep depression.

So this morning as soon as I woke up, I had my earbuds upstairs so I immediately put earbud in and set 20 minute timer to get outside and turned on the uplifting music.

And went downstairs quickly made protein shake and got the heck outside on my little walk. I do still make myself turn around after 10 minutes.

There is a huge part of me saying what is the point? Etc.

But.. I HAVE to try. I just have to.

Otherwise, the bullies win.

Does NOT mean I'm doing anything confidently to say the least.

But my motto is Don't Give Up. And I can honestly say that I haven't given up.

Love you guys! Hope something in this helps! Just sharing from my heart 🥰

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Friday July 10