Broken hearted, prayer request. · Wilderness Wisdom

Broken hearted, prayer request.

My heart is pretty heavy tonight y'all, I'm seeing things that God is revealing to me and it makes me sad that I have been willing to compromise where God doesn't want me to be in places I have been in, if that makes sense. Willing to sacrifice myself for the sake of others yet again, hurting myself and probably grieving the Lord also. I know he can bless me with better, I know he can sustain me and fill the empty places and fill the voids in my life but FEAR AND LONLINESS are gripping me, the uncertainty of when the promises will be fulfilled is killing me. I want the good gifts he has for me I'm tired of my life being empty promises and broken words and nights of silent prayers and tears on my pillow. I want joy and laughter again. I want glory I want the joy of the Lord, the woman that was so on fire for god that nothing and no one could make her stray away, the girl who laughed with God not this version of me who resents him who loved me first. The ache in my chest is the lump in my throat and tears on my face. How could I let myself become this woman. I'm so broken. A broken piece of glass shattered beyond repair is how I feel. I wish I could snap my own fingers and make it all better. I want God to make it better faster than how it's been going. Healing and changing and turning away isn't easy. So my heart is heavy and broken in pieces. Maybe someone else can relate or maybe not but if y'all made it this far please pray for me. Comfort and warmth and peace I wish I had right now

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