I shouldn’t admit this but 🙈 · Speak Your Way To Cash

Ashley Kirkwood

2d (edited) • Mindset & Motivation

I shouldn’t admit this but 🙈

I thought I would never be a mother.

I remember standing in my old law firm’s hallway late at night…

exhausted…

hungry…

trying to impress the partners… and walking past a woman partner’s cracked door.

She was in her office crying while her kids cursed her out on speakerphone.

Not once.

Not twice.

I had seen this happen enough times that I silently promised myself:

“Oh no… I’m not doing that. I’m not having kids.

I’m giving my ALL to my career. My husband. My ambition.

That’s it.”

And y’all… I meant it.

I couldn’t see how motherhood fit into the life I was building.

I didn’t think I had room for it.

I didn’t think I had capacity for it.

And I definitely didn’t want my future kids mad because I couldn’t be around.

Fast forward.

May 5, 2020.

I had my daughter, Christelle (Christ+Elle) Kirkwood.

10 lbs. 9 oz. of pure light, fire, joy, and God’s reminder that He writes better stories than I do.

And now, in just a few weeks, I’m taking 30 days off to travel the WORLD with my family — Dubai, Thailand, Bangkok, the Philippines, Nigeria, Ghana… and more.

Not to work.

Not to hustle.

Not to keep up.

To rest.

To hear from God.

To be with my family.

To live the life I built to the fullest.

Because I didn’t build a cage.

I built a business.

And that business gave me freedom the moment I stopped trying to do it the “corporate way.”

When I think about that younger version of me… that girl in the hallway… that girl who thought motherhood would smother her ambition… I just want to hug her.

She had NO IDEA how much possibility she carried.

She had NO IDEA that ambition and motherhood could coexist.

She had NO IDEA that building big things models freedom for your children — it doesn’t take it from them.

My dad was an entrepreneur.

And the greatest gift he gave me wasn’t money.

It was proximity to purpose.

Watching him work. Watching him dream. Watching him build. And watching him never miss a big moment of my life in the process.

He never made me a scapegoat for his vision.

And I’m not doing that to my daughter either.

At the end of this month, I’m hosting an event called the Land Big Clients Challenge, but honestly?

It could be called the Land Big Freedom Challenge.

Because the truth is:

I got free — FREE free — when I built something that removed every limitation I used to believe about myself.

When I finally accepted that wanting a big marriage, a big family, a big vision, a big bank account, and a big life wasn’t too much… it was obedience.

If you are a licensed expert…

A certified expert…

A corporate-trained, degree-having, hyper-qualified woman who’s been playing small…

I need you to hear me:

You can have motherhood AND money.

You can have family AND freedom.

You can have calling AND cashflow.

You can have all of it — without losing yourself in the process.

I wish I could go back and tell my younger self:

“The life you’re planning is SO MUCH SMALLER than the life God is preparing to give you.”

But since I can’t tell her…

I’m telling you.

Your degrees weren’t wasted.

Your corporate years weren’t wasted.

Your late nights weren’t wasted.

Your ambition isn’t a liability.

Your voice isn’t “too much.”

Your desires aren’t wrong.

They are the clues to your next level.

P.S. If you want help landing rich clients using your authentic voice, comment FREEDOM and I’ll DM you the link to Land Big Clients™. It’s just $97 until further notice.

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