I know this sounds silly, but listen.
A few weeks ago I was lying in my bed high asf (i do not smoke much. Just now and then) in the middle of the night. And then I came across a video that gave me a lot of clarity. The video seemed to tie together and connect a lot of dots ends in my head. Something definitely set something in motion inside me.
I felt a very very nice warmth in the center of my body. In my solar plexus. It was so nice and warm and it went up to my heart. Then my heart was also so nice and warm. I felt so loved. I felt very good at that moment.
I lay there for I don't know how long, totally peaceful in my bed with a big smile on my face, just enjoying it. And since I was fried I felt all of this even more intensely
Since my heart was torn out by my ex four months ago, a lot has been happening to me. I like the change in me.
But what is it about what happened to me in this situation? I honestly have no idea.
So I believe and I'm pretty sure that it was God.
The love of God / the first uncaused cause / the creative force / the universe / energy, whatever you call it.