I’m deeply alone…..I don’t wanna be alone any more. I’ve basically come to understand science as my salvation….and I’m afraid people will judge me because of that. So all I do all day is mantra that is basically me repeating words in the philosophical approach of “what the hell is this even?!?” It helps a lot….im a lot less confused when I can’t wrap my head around a thing, I just have to sit with it and spend time with it that way and over time I learn as stuff naturally pops up in my head, not me spiraling for answers out of a fearful obligation that I’ll be screwed if I don’t understand immediately……..circumstance and society alike have given my fear brain too much instant ramen I guess haha. It’s stuck craving it and it sucks! Agh!
Here’s a good one - everything is either a potato or not a potato. Given that, everything is either you or not you. Given that, the word co-incidence is actually how reality works rather than a bug…..we’ve all been blaspheming our entire lives….every one of us.