In February 2026, I found God—or perhaps God found me. Shortly afterward, I had what I can only describe as a profound spiritual experience. I experienced a feminine spiritual presence placing her hands on my face and saying, “Look at her side.” Whether others interpret that as spiritual, symbolic, or psychological, it changed the way I see the world. It taught me patience, compassion, and the importance of looking at situations from another perspective. I’ve always believed in God, but before then, I had never truly felt God’s presence. Around the same time, I became fascinated by quantum physics. The more I learned, the more I found myself reflecting on experiments like the double-slit experiment, which demonstrates that many fundamental particles can behave in ways that challenge our everyday intuition. That didn’t prove my faith. Instead, it reminded me that the universe is far more mysterious than I had ever imagined. It encouraged me to keep asking questions—with both curiosity and humility. Since then, I’ve noticed many changes in my own life and perspective. Some experiences are difficult to explain, and I don’t pretend to have all the answers. I’m still learning, and I hope I always will. What I do know is this: trusting God has brought me peace, hope, and a greater appreciation for life than I’ve ever known before. Whether your path is through faith, science, philosophy, or simply asking honest questions, I hope you never stop seeking truth with an open heart.

Be respectful. Be kind. Be loving. Be caring. Be honest. Be authentic. Everyone makes mistakes, but what matters is that we learn from them and keep growing. Never give up on your children. Never give up on yourself. Don’t abandon the people you love—including the person you’re becoming. It’s easy to let outside voices influence the way we think, so take the time to reflect, ask questions, and think for yourself. I’m still learning, and I hope I never stop. You’re never too old to learn.

I’m deeply alone…..I don’t wanna be alone any more. I’ve basically come to understand science as my salvation….and I’m afraid people will judge me because of that. So all I do all day is mantra that is basically me repeating words in the philosophical approach of “what the hell is this even?!?” It helps a lot….im a lot less confused when I can’t wrap my head around a thing, I just have to sit with it and spend time with it that way and over time I learn as stuff naturally pops up in my head, not me spiraling for answers out of a fearful obligation that I’ll be screwed if I don’t understand immediately……..circumstance and society alike have given my fear brain too much instant ramen I guess haha. It’s stuck craving it and it sucks! Agh! Here’s a good one - everything is either a potato or not a potato. Given that, everything is either you or not you. Given that, the word co-incidence is actually how reality works rather than a bug…..we’ve all been blaspheming our entire lives….every one of us.