I have been on multiple "major" streaks throughout the year and each time it's like i was awakening something new. My first ever 90 days streak which I did during high school back then, I was not even aware of what SR is. One day I just came to the conclusion of not busting or watching corn giving me much more energy. During the streak I obtained charisma. I was physically unattractive back then due to a bad diet, but I still noticed that half of the class admired me and wanted to be my friend. No spirituality during this time. My second major streak was 179 days, started during second semester freshman year of college, ended first semester sophomore. During this time I learned what SR truly was, and was made aware of spiritual things that happen. I even encountered IRL miracles that I can not ever explain using science. I found myself becoming more reclusive, letting few people into my life and deleting social media. As for appearance, I noticed that I started to have glowing eyes. My skin wasn't the best but it glowed. Still had bloated face and higher bodyfat but I was more athletic. I didn't care too much about my appearance. My third ongoing streak, right now as I am writing this, day 77, second semester of sophomore year in college. I consider this not a "major streak" but THE MAJOR STREAK. I experienced all the spiritual and physical benefits prior. But the thing is... this time, it's like my facial structure completely changed. My facial dimorphism changed...it fixed my recessed chin; my canthal tilt became more positive; my eyebrows grew longer, denser and straighter; my face slimmed way down; facial harmony went up; my strength went way up; physique all time peak. I consider myself a loner right now - I don't even bother talking with people much outside of necessity because it felt pointless. The most important change is that I find myself becoming progressively more asexual, no i am not associating myself with the "letter people" but what I am trying to say is that I literally find myself becoming more incapable of lust, like Jesus Christ. Jesus can be around prostitutes and not get tempted; I feel like I don't even get any reaction from any stimuli anymore. I literally feel nothing when something provocative shows up. It's like I am genuinely unable to be physically attracted to anyone. I have done my research and apparently some long term brahmacharya practitioners experience this too. My libido is high by the way (everything is functional I just don't care to use it).

Sometimes you gotta just ask yourself: why do I even bother retaining? If no good answer comes to mind straight away, don't expect to last that long. 👇🏼 Tell me in the comments why you care to retain.👇🏼

Since these consistent SR streaks this year, I haven't had best sleep cycles. The variation in the energy levels bcuz of SR could be the reason. Maybe the mind or body is trying to reset itself through years of addiction. I am not sure what the problem is. It's ruining my days and my focus. Has anyone experienced this?

Yesterday, I released a YouTube community post asking what are your main triggers of relapsing and the results spoke for themselves. It's crazy how most people KNOW the triggers and causes of relapsing yet they still don't do anything to change their reality. Like I said before, I got to the point where I was so fed up of being miserable and I wanted to see what was on the other side of male life. As controversial as this may seem, sometimes we just have to shut off our emotions as men and get on with it. Even though the beginning stages of semen retention might be difficult, it might be uncertain or scary, but the reality is that people are keeping themselves miserable despite knowing exactly what is causing them to relapse. What everyone needs to realise is that the emotional triggers that make you relapse (e.g stress, boredom, loneliness, depression, etc) are the same symptoms that porn addiction gives you. Feel stressed? Watch some porn -> relapse -> feel way more stressed out. Feel lonely? Watch some porn -> relapse -> feel way more lonely. Feel depressed? Watch some porn -> relapse -> feel way more depressed. Notice a pattern? The emotional triggers to watch porn and relapse are the exact same things you feel days afterwards but worse because it is a vicious cycle of torture for your mind and body. You might not learn anything else that I tell you but if this can make sense to you, you understand that it is your mission to catch yourself every time you feel these emotional triggers and know that relapsing is only going to encourage more relapsing in the near future. Remember why you're doing this. 🫵🏼

Guys yet again, after maintaining a solid 7 day streak, nightfall has occurred to me yesterday. I think it's time to accept it as part of the journey. I will not be treating as relapse which I had been doing previously as I didn't consider it to be a clean SR. But as I don't have any control over it in my sleep, as i have no choice over it. I am sick of feeling regret about it. I am still retaining for over 3 weeks without porn so I am still winning.