Today i ended my month long streak. It was becoming unbearable affecting my professional life and wellbeing. The benefits were great, would've liked to extend it more but didn't happen. I don't feel too bad tbh, bcuz i did way better than last time. This time tho, I had too much pain in the d area, kinda shook me bcuz i thought something was wrong, might be a medical issue or something, was almost gonna visit a urologist.. Because benefits are great but not at the expense of career and wellbeing. I can do a month long streak, now I know fr so it will be more than that fs next time.. I hope this doesn't discourage anyone but take it in a positive way. A month long streak is still better than a few days. I am gonna shut up from now on and not post big streak talks. I will keep improving from here on and motivate others. Thanks.

Today I probably had the strongest urge to relapse so far. So strong that I almost convinced myself to relapse. It's the hardest I had to fight off this urge, I had to use utmost will power in my mind. But I actually beat it. I didn't wanna lose the glow on my face and just the high energy vibration I am experiencing. It's almost like not wanting to lose the super power. Would be frustrating to start all over again. Can't believe the mind games are so strong that I almost fell off but phew. Onwards and upwards from here on.

I have been on multiple "major" streaks throughout the year and each time it's like i was awakening something new. My first ever 90 days streak which I did during high school back then, I was not even aware of what SR is. One day I just came to the conclusion of not busting or watching corn giving me much more energy. During the streak I obtained charisma. I was physically unattractive back then due to a bad diet, but I still noticed that half of the class admired me and wanted to be my friend. No spirituality during this time. My second major streak was 179 days, started during second semester freshman year of college, ended first semester sophomore. During this time I learned what SR truly was, and was made aware of spiritual things that happen. I even encountered IRL miracles that I can not ever explain using science. I found myself becoming more reclusive, letting few people into my life and deleting social media. As for appearance, I noticed that I started to have glowing eyes. My skin wasn't the best but it glowed. Still had bloated face and higher bodyfat but I was more athletic. I didn't care too much about my appearance. My third ongoing streak, right now as I am writing this, day 77, second semester of sophomore year in college. I consider this not a "major streak" but THE MAJOR STREAK. I experienced all the spiritual and physical benefits prior. But the thing is... this time, it's like my facial structure completely changed. My facial dimorphism changed...it fixed my recessed chin; my canthal tilt became more positive; my eyebrows grew longer, denser and straighter; my face slimmed way down; facial harmony went up; my strength went way up; physique all time peak. I consider myself a loner right now - I don't even bother talking with people much outside of necessity because it felt pointless. The most important change is that I find myself becoming progressively more asexual, no i am not associating myself with the "letter people" but what I am trying to say is that I literally find myself becoming more incapable of lust, like Jesus Christ. Jesus can be around prostitutes and not get tempted; I feel like I don't even get any reaction from any stimuli anymore. I literally feel nothing when something provocative shows up. It's like I am genuinely unable to be physically attracted to anyone. I have done my research and apparently some long term brahmacharya practitioners experience this too. My libido is high by the way (everything is functional I just don't care to use it).