I learned something very important today. That quitting my addiction is something bigger than myself and it's okay that i sometimes i admit that i can't defeat it. Today i was crucial urging to relapse it was like a never ending cycle, but the difference this time was that i start to pray and this honestly saved me. To lower my expectations and take pressure of myself does the same thing i have always this extreme high expectations of myself, but in one point i am thinking it is it to prove something for myself or for other people. I am going to delete stool for 1 month or so to completely embrace semen retention as something natural. I wish everyone a successful start to 2026. It was cool to see my command in ethan video thank you it really means a lot to me.