It wasn't confidence. It was capacity.
When I first created the Mysterium, I joined a few free workshops about how to sell courses. I learned the gist, but heard crickets when I promoted my things. There was interest, but no one ever “booked a call.” After I built the whole course, I knew I needed to figure out how to fill my cohorts. So I took a gigantic leap. I’m talking about an $11k investment that turned into $15k. I figured out how these million-dollar coaches do it. Through the right ad placements, DM funnels, freebies, and more. I was booking calls and filled up four different 8-week cohorts. But I was burnt out. By my third cohort, I was fried. My nervous system went out. I did it one more time with no ads, just DMs. This was the smallest cohort I ran, but I knew I was done. Then I joined a few other groups of coaches who shared energetic practices to “hold more” and “charge more” for the results I was giving my clients. But there was a resistance in me that wasn’t just fear. It felt like a line I wasn’t willing to cross. How can I charge $5–6k for a program? Am I going against everything I stand for? It took me three years after the initial course creation to understand this. It wasn’t confidence I was missing. It was capacity. Not just the capacity to hold clients but to hold money, visibility, projection, and the responsibility that comes with deeper initiation. I’ve slowed everything down. Six months with my clients because this work needs time to take root. Not just scale intensity, but actually hold. The wellness industry is moving toward the trillion-dollar mark each year. And most of it is being held by wyt practitioners charging sometimes $30k+ for a training or program, while facilitators are being overtrained and under-integrated. Certified, but dysregulated. Skilled, but at capacity. Holding others, while quietly burning out. What I am now understanding is that this is the bridge for the transfer of wealth. My ancestors have paid with their lives for freedom. My teachers have spent their lives helping others and were always provided for.