What is fear? is it an emotion? an experience? a chemical in the brain? where does it live when it is dormant? do we get a say in where and how and why fear show up? if you haven't already noticed I enjoy to think. i enjoy pondering upon the things that are too easily hurried past in this life. I like to stop, and ask why. I guess I'm childlike in that way. have you ever stopped and questioned your fear? maybe questioned yourself because of your fear? well I have. and Ive noticed that almost 100% of my fear comes from uncertainty...that uncertainty can take many many shapes. Right now I did something drastic in my life...which happens sometimes when you let yourself trust where you are led. I had fear before going through with this decision. and I felt amazing after, and then slowly fear creeped in. I built a relationship with myself where I can talk, and hear back. if you're like what in the world does that mean, its okay! it sounds weird! over time I learned myself, and then grew a relationship with the different parts of me. like my fears and my heart and my mind and my brain and my skin and my external life and my thoughts and my past and my future. but well talk about all that some other day. back to my fear. I asked it why it was there. I was so sure of myself and the direction I've been given. I was so confident in my choices. so why fear have you creeped into the corner of my thoughts. and I heard inside this; I'm not scared that I was wrong in my choice, I'm not even scared of being judged for my choice, what brings me fear is not being able to explain my choice. (still a silly fear ) but it allowed me to see where I'm at, and how I'm thinking and what kind of space I'll be growing out of next. many things bring us fear but fear itself comes from 3 main things, fear of not being good enough, fear of not being loved, and fear of not being accepted. we are humans, we crave that connection through acceptance socially. thought out time its been shown to us so many different ways how cruel humanity can be if you're not accepted.

how many times do you say "this is the last time" or "from now on I'm going to..." you might even have said, "i swear I'm never going through this again? Don't worry your not alone. creating that change and sticking to it is hard for most people, and the people who make is look easy, well i promise its though hard work and commitment to themselves that make it look that way. every body has things they are over coming, and everyone has obstacles they are facing. the question is how do OTHER people over come and create transformation, while your still trying to cross off your todo list successfully everyday. Well here are 3 tips for helping yourself create change and stick to it long enough for it to become transformation. it takes an AVERAGE of 66 days to break or start a habit. knowing this, you should create a plan that involves DAILY REPETATIVE ACTION towards your goal for change. human beings love being rewarded! set up a system for yourself where there are weekly rewards from actually completing your daily repetitive action. this will help continuous commitment from yourself for 3 months consecutively! And lastly find a buddy, a coach a mentor to help keep you accountable. there's nothing worse than having to tell someone who is rooting for you that you didn't follow through for no good reason. Let me know what helps you ! NAMASTE

Lets just be honest The culture of the west is comfort Comfort and luxury. Hiding behind a facade of hard work and self empowerment. But the goal in those are superficial. Theres no search of substance and depth. We are taught to believe in hard work only to achieve a life of a certain status or standard. A life easier than the struggle it took to get there. A life of material achievement. A life of detachment to the core of who we are and where we come from. So as energy medicine, shamanic healing, and holistic remedies flood through the west right now, you can almost sense the imbalance of these modalities. Great disciplines become "trending" Ancient practices become "lux" the way back to wholeness has been diluted. Wholeness isnt the sound bath. It doesnt come from a reiki session And meditation will only take you so far. Its not that these modalities are lacking. Its that the discipline behind them become faded as we translate them into our western culture. It brings me joy to see the spread of awareness of these modalities. But the world is still hurting, mother earth still suffers, and the spirits that roam her are still lost. When I work with clients my goal isn't always comfort. Yes I know the body and systems inside need to feel safe to start to regulate. But hear me out, the idea that safety comes from comfort isn't true. Bringing safety to the body is allowing yourself to experience the shedding of false identity and narratives, its exposing the wounds and letting them find healing, its looking inside and learning where you have betrayed yourself. Non of which is comfortable- no matter how safe the environment is to do so. Thats why, in order to bring true transformation, growth and alignment into your life and then to your clients life, there has to be a space thats safe enough for someone to let go.. Letting go in itself brings so much uncertainty. We humans like TO KNOW. We like to see whats around the corner. We like to prepare for it. We like to then look back on it and reflect how it went.

“I used to think I wasn’t ready, I use to think I wasn’t at the “level” yet where God would reveal to me the truths my soul was seeking. I vigorously worked, I disciplined my flesh, I spoke of creation and light, I stepped into the dark forest of my shadows many times each time emerging changed but not enlightened with the truths my soul was yearning and begging source to reveal to me. Then, like a wicked curse, memories poured in from places I hadn’t been in this lifetime, my souls pain and anguish embodied this flesh, I understood lifetimes of pain and suffering and suddenly this one as well. Then as I sat feeling destroyed by these memories, lost in a sea of past pain, as I was losing sight of why and how, and what was I supposed to do with this information my soul received, I understood something, I understood that while the turbulence from all this ancestral suffering, from my souls fragmented pieces over time, was shaking the foundations of this life, it was this life’s suffering that prohibited me from access this deeper pain, and only when I removed this lifetimes suffering (that ,yes came from my past life’s suffering- how ironic ) was I able to begin to heal my souls past and the past of my ancestors.” ” Suffering exists in our mind. Pain exists in our bodies, and memories can hold both.” -G

How many times a day do you find yourself pushing through fatigue, Reaching for that afternoon coffee or pick me up just to finish the day. How many yawns. How many blank stares out your office window. How many moments was your body calling to you for rest, but was fiercely ignored because the work won't do itself. The deadline cant be pushed back. Your promotion is just around the corner...if you could just push througha little more. The truth is your body is yearning to rest and restore. Whether you know it or not these small moments of fatigue, ignored, can lead to catastrophic health complications. Your body has natural reoccurring biological cycles that include your wake and sleep and hormone production and even dream cycles. These cycles are less then 24 hours. They occur more then once a day. Ignoring the essential psychological breaks and physiological breaks the body depends on upsets the rhythm and balance of the mind, body, and spirit.