What is fear?
is it an emotion? an experience? a chemical in the brain?
where does it live when it is dormant?
do we get a say in where and how and why fear show up?
if you haven't already noticed I enjoy to think. i enjoy pondering upon the things that are too easily hurried past in this life.
I like to stop, and ask why. I guess I'm childlike in that way.
have you ever stopped and questioned your fear? maybe questioned yourself because of your fear?
well I have.
and Ive noticed that almost 100% of my fear comes from uncertainty...that uncertainty can take many many shapes.
Right now I did something drastic in my life...which happens sometimes when you let yourself trust where you are led. I had fear before going through with this decision. and I felt amazing after, and then slowly fear creeped in.
I built a relationship with myself where I can talk, and hear back. if you're like what in the world does that mean, its okay! it sounds weird!
over time I learned myself, and then grew a relationship with the different parts of me. like my fears and my heart and my mind and my brain and my skin and my external life and my thoughts and my past and my future. but well talk about all that some other day.
back to my fear.
I asked it why it was there. I was so sure of myself and the direction I've been given. I was so confident in my choices. so why fear have you creeped into the corner of my thoughts.
and I heard inside this;
I'm not scared that I was wrong in my choice, I'm not even scared of being judged for my choice, what brings me fear is not being able to explain my choice. (still a silly fear ) but it allowed me to see where I'm at, and how I'm thinking and what kind of space I'll be growing out of next.
many things bring us fear but fear itself comes from 3 main things, fear of not being good enough, fear of not being loved, and fear of not being accepted.
we are humans, we crave that connection through acceptance socially. thought out time its been shown to us so many different ways how cruel humanity can be if you're not accepted.
when you sink inside yourself, there's a place where you find the acceptance the love and the support that's so deep and pure, the acceptance of peers seems to shrink in its glory.
you find a light in yourself that brings forth power and protection and purpose, and when you lean into that space, there's no room for fear.
In a book my husband was reading it talked about a scene from Batman, where bat man had a rope tied to his waste for security while jumping to clear an almost impossible gap.
he kept trying and failing. each time getting up to resecure the rope incase he fell again. (now if Batman was a real super hero he'd fly but we wont talk about that !LOL)
but finally someone suggested that Batman "LOSE THE ROPE"
at the end of the day the rope that was for "safety" or "fear" (BC sometimes they are disguised as the same) was really holding him back from the miracles leap to freedom that he needed to take.
Fear can be looked at many ways, the question truly is, are you looking at it? are you trying to see it from other angles?
or are you running from your fear, ironically out of fear!?
We are here to broaden our awareness through experiences.
Look at your fear next times it awakens from the slumber within you, ask it boldly why it there. what is on the other side of the fear? and how is the fear serving you?
As you sort through these questions within yourself, you'll find a growing relationship with your fear.
you learn that it is there to protect you, and you learn that it can deceive you and misguide you and you learn how to trust which one is happening.
oh by the way I'm bald..
that was my drastic change in my life I recently made.
HAPPY MONDAY
NAMASTE <3