Last night I snapped at my partners Grandfather. I won't get into it but It was a stressful situation for all of us. Most the time I had been grounded but then when the tension of the situation rose and I had commands from multiple direction. I momentarily lost my feet and raised my voice. I re-grounded myself after this moment and helped out others in the situation and came to group with more presence. I apologised and thankfully her grandfather recognised the stress of the situation and my attempt to help, rather than the volume/tone it was portrayed.
Nevertheless, this was a snap moment for me. Next time I will have a pattern interrupt - likely with a rubber band, to signal to myself that my anxiety is raising and I need to recognise the situation, not just the direction