There is strength in weakness 👽🤑🦋

There is strength in weakness. Sometimes the bravest thing we can do is break down. I am preparing to leave my life behind and start fresh. I feel like I’ve already triumphed so many mountains, yet somehow my journey is just beginning. An odd place to rest within this wild adventure of the human experience. A pit stop before I begin again. My resilience is what got me through the first trek of rising above adversity/harsh family dynamics. However, I feel this next part of my journey will require a different sort of strength: the courage to be vulnerable. The courage to be seen in my nakedness. The courage to speak my truth. The courage to be unashamed of pain, sensitivity, & uniqueness. The courage to be misunderstood and judged. This sort of strength may come easier to some. However, it’s a real challenge for someone who got through life by being their own rock. I’ve always been the one to hold it together for my family…blessing them with endless graciousness, kindness, and patience. Now I must learn how to receive what I have given. Now I must learn how to let others help me. Now is time to let go of my fear of rejection. Being self sufficient is a protection mechanism when it becomes extreme. Yet, after repeated disappointment, I was left with only myself to rely on. I am tired of this. I am tired of being alone. I am tired of feeling like an alien when I know there’s plenty of fellow aliens out there to connect with. I am done containing what needs to be seen.

After reading this back to myself, I asked myself why do I feel like an alien? Why have I always felt most alone when with others? Why am I like this? Why have I struggled so hard to connect when I love humans? Why do I isolate myself?

I feel the answer pertains to this deep power within me. My power intimidates me. My intuition just knows things. I just know things lol. Since a child, I have received intense downloads. I would receive intense waves of insight and knowing that are hard to capture with words. A wave of imagery, and direct gnosis would leave me disoriented. Since a child, I’ve known that there’s much more to this “reality” than we were taught. I knew there’s much more to humans than we were taught. These downloads set me on a quest for truth since day 1 lol. I would question things like pain. I would play with numbers and find hidden patterns. I was doing some alien shit as a child lmao. However, the world sort of killed my inner genius as it tends to do. As I grew older, I became self conscious of sensitivity/powers. My mom struggles mentally and can come off as a bit insane to be honest. While my Dad is highly critical of me. The combination of the two turned me into a perfectionist——not wanting to give anyone reason to question if I’m mentally ill like my mom. So I contained my uniqueness. I never told anyone about the downloads. Yet, there is no stop to my curiosity. I continued to question everything. I was piecing together “conspiracy theories” in elementary school. Around 6th grade, I became deeply connected with certain music artists like Kanye, Tupac, and Kendrick who seemed to speak to me through their music. You could say I’m clairaudient as the divine has a way of speaking to me through music. Fast forward to 2020, I was 16 and already well aware of the New World Order, but still confused of how we got here. I was/am deeply intrigued with “aliens” and sought to know more. I sensed that Covid was a part of the demonic agenda’s fuckery and started reading David Icke when school shut down. This really sort of fucked me up as I became aware of the matrix on all levels. Being 16 with this level of knowledge was a bit overwhelming while simultaneously comforting as it satisfied my thirst for truth. The main thing that stuck with me within the thousands of pages I read about satanic elite, reptilians, holographic reality, etc, is this quote that an entity said to David the one time he tried ayahuasca,

“Infinite love is the only truth…Everything else is an illusion.”

I know this quote may be interpreted differently depending on the level of awareness the reader is operating on. Yet, it hit hard for me. It grounds me. It is how I have glided through intense psychological warfare and spiritual attacks. I don’t fear fear. I see it as only a vibration seemingly separated from the wholeness of love. I intimidate myself & others because I understand love——something humanity has seemed to forgotten that they are. We are not separate. We are one. And I LIVE from this truth. I have finally mastered being here now—-one with love (it’ll always be a practice) My heart leading and guiding the way as it feels frequency. I don’t fear this human experience. I don’t fear the satanic “elite.” I feel love always wins and we get to live in the era where that plays out. I don’t care to identify as psychic or this or that. I feel words are overrated at times lol as the matrix exists in your mind——something you can overcome by grounding yourself in your heart. You cannot control someone who moves from their heart. Someone who lives in love and knows that love is the most powerful frequency.

So here I am, ready to connect with humans after years of developing my powers alone❤️

Thank you to all of the beautiful souls here who have seen glimpse of me and didn’t run from my intensity. I guess that is my fear now to overcome—-the fear of rejection for being too much, too deep, too intense.

Here is some alien art and a bit of my personality lol. My main goal in life rn is to open up after being persecuted from my family for being too deep or too this or that. I’ve heard it all god damn 😂 I started posting on social media——decoding the matrix and that freaked them out a bit so I sort of gotta lay low until I get out of my small, conservative town.

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