Roa's all over the place messy Breakthrough Story

Hi Guys. I'm a little late into the challenge, but I'm catching on I think. Here's my seriously all over the place, raw and messy AF Breakthrough Story. Very curious how I will be using it. ❤️‍🔥

I'm an educated Medical Doctor, still working part time as a GP and part time in my own business as a (and now I'm just claiming it guys!) WITCH DOCTOR. I am also part time solo-mother of a 4 and 3 y/o and that is why I'm a bit late to sharing this.

Roa breakthrough story

Step 1: Before

I believed in the conventional medicinal world as a Doctor. I wouldn't even say that I thought this was healing, but I’ve forgotten what healing looked like.

I was kinda in apathy to life. I lived with a deep sense of not belonging in this conventional world, so misunderstood. I tried to fill the void with alcohol, drama, insane work-schedule, more work, more numbing.

This was in medical school. Before my spiritual awakening.

Step 2: Crisis

It was a mix of everything being too much, my body started to scream with symptoms. I didn’t listen to it the first couple of times. I had 2 herniated discs in my back, I had unexplainable high liver levels, I had heart arrhythmia, I woke up with sudden severe eczema and was on steroid creams for 3 years. I was in a dysfunctional relationship.

There were several pivotal moments, but one specific where I kinda feel like my heart powers turned back on was one night when I was 25 or 26 y/o I laid on my bed, staring out into thin air for hours, I didn’t move. Like when you just feel so heavy that you literally can’t move. You know that feeling?

I thought at that moment “Right now, you are only existing in this world to be something for your boyfriend. For your mother. For your father. Like, who the fuck are you?!”

And I decided to do something about it. I could either continue like this, but then life wouldnøt be worth it, I thought. Or I could start changing something.

This is how my spiritual awakening began, year 2017 or 2018.

Step 3: Chase

I started dedicating myself to doing 20 minutes of shadow work every night from some journal prompts. It was a STRUGGLE. Everytime I read the prompts my nervous system went into freeze and I immediately got tired. I now know how much rewiring I did with this. Through that process I started to feel my soul again. I started making other choices and better choices choosing myself. I got into Human Design, astrology, Ayurveda. I started meditating, doing witchy stuff. And I started doing homeopathy for my eczema and within 14 days my eczema was gone and has never returned. That was a new breaking point for me that led me deeper into the natural and holistic healing field.

I broke free of my former relationship. I met someone I thought was the love of my life. I had the entire world in front of me. I didn’t know how to connect the alternative medicine world with being a conventional medical doctor, but I knew I HAD to.

Then I got pregnant with my first born. And I had to face how all of my plans and dreams were put on standby. I went through post partum depression and through that I started my Human Design Eduation to find back to my essence and it led me into my Ayurvedic education. But then I got pregnant again and had to struggle work as a medical doctor, being almost alone pregnant with difficulties with a 1 y/o and having my ayurvedic education. I used my ayurvedic approaches a lot through that pregnancy and birth and it was a great help.

Step 4: Conflict

I felt alone. I had to face my biggest witchwound. Could all of this even coexist? How is it possible to build a bridge from the conventional medical world to the alternative, when the first part of it is not allowing the other part to even exist? I had revolution boiling in my blood. I wanted to change the system so badly. However I was fucking afraid! I was afraid to get burned at the stake for my witchcraft. In modern day life that would mean me being afraid to have my license taken. And that meant not being able to feed my children.

We moved to another city and I met my soul family. And very quickly I started up as an entrepreneur.

I started to take responsibility over that fear, I pushed through and I showed up regardless.

However, here’s the pivotal moment. I ended up in a heartbreaking divorce from the father of my kids. Like, every trauma you could think of. I went into one entire year of total isolation, healing and hibernation.

The fire inside of me was never put out through this. However I had to face my fear of being burned at the stake, FOR REAL. Through this war that went on in my private life I was reported to the Danish Health Government for misuse of my licence as I practised Ayurveda and alternative modalities.

It had to come. I had to face my biggest fear. It was as horrible as you could only imagine. But I explained everything and they shut the report down immediately. However, as it turned out, they were actually shadow following my account for 3 months before I heard anything.

Step 5: Breakthrough

When you are at the bottom. When everything you feared becomes reality. When you are screaming at the clouds “If the sky wants to fall down upon me, then fucking let it fall down!” then you’ve seen the worst.

I have seen the backflip of every corner of the matrix through this journey and my pivotal moment after facing my fear of being burned at the stake by actual being burned at the stake, was about 6-8 months later. I lost in court. I was done. I laid down my swords. The only thing I could rely on now was my intuition. I changed my name. My frequency. And I rose very slowly. My fire began to reignite. However now, with such a slow and steady potency. I am no longer blindsided. I do not believe in “building bridges”. I believe in creating something new.

I could never have arrived here without the women in my coven, my soul sisters, my village. They have been the ones practically and spiritually holding the vision for me whenever I crumbled through the last 3 years.

You can’t do this alone.

I am here to connect realms. But I can’t do it alone.

Step 6: After

My biggest fear has been to be academically thrown out. To be burned at the stake. To lose my children because of me believing in a world that is non-conform. And my biggest transformation was looking that fear directly in the eye. I’ve been ignoring it. My body. My purpose. Until my biggest fears happened to me. Through that I was humbled. I was reshaped and I was reignited. Through that I remembered who I really am. I am your local witch doctor. Your digital witch doctor. I am the woman with the herbs and mystical energetic rituals that you seek in the shadows because you’re afraid of judgement.

I am here to connect the worlds. To guide the witches and healers out of the shadows. To stand as an example.

I serve with more patience today. I serve with a clearer image of my road ahead. I know what kind of world we’re building. I know the old world will scream on its way down. But I now know that it has nothing to do with me and I will not be taken down with it. Because I might work in the shadows. But I serve you light.

If you've read this far, you can find me on IG @roa.moelgaard

AHO!

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