𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗡𝗘𝗪 𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗣𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝗕𝗘𝗚𝗜𝗡𝗦 So the new chapter has begun. We are finally in Bali. This has been a long time coming. 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗕𝗜𝗧 𝗡𝗢 𝗢𝗡𝗘 𝗧𝗔𝗟𝗞𝗦 𝗔𝗕𝗢𝗨𝗧 The lead up to being here has been one hell of a ride. We have had lots of highs and lows in the few months that we were getting ready to come. My plan originally was to document everything, but chaos hit, overwhelm hit, and dysregulation hit. In all honesty, I wasn't able to string a sentence together, let alone do any form of videos or writing to keep everyone updated on our travels and our journey. 𝗪𝗛𝗬 𝗜’𝗠 𝗦𝗛𝗔𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗦 𝗡𝗢𝗪 I will be documenting the journey here on my blog and everywhere else because I know we're not the only people to go through these things. I know there are other people wanting to make big moves or big life changes like this, knowing how to honour yourself and come back to yourself when needed, and actually letting go of certain things at times when pressure gets too high. 𝗪𝗘’𝗥𝗘 𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗨𝗔𝗟𝗟𝗬 𝗛𝗘𝗥𝗘 We are on our second full day in Bali, and we arrived three days ago. I have to say I feel like I'm at home. This just feels like, yeah, my place. 𝗟𝗜𝗟𝗬’𝗦 𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗙𝗧 (𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗪𝗢𝗪… 𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗦 𝗢𝗡𝗘 𝗛𝗜𝗧 𝗠𝗘) Lily has settled really well. She's loving it here and said that she feels very calm and is shocked by how calm she feels and has really enjoyed kind of seeing the little bits around like children, walking the streets without adults present, just everyone being so friendly and happy. The warmth obviously makes a really big difference: the sunshine, the having a pool. It's just all really surreal for her at the moment, and I'm sure that she's going to have lots of highs and lows, but I already know that this was definitely the right move to make for her. 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗕𝗜𝗧 𝗧𝗛𝗔𝗧 𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗘𝗦 𝗘𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗬𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗡𝗚 Bringing her to a different country is a huge thing and one no parent would take lightly, but for me, knowing that she can start to get settled, find her feet, make friends, and go out is just phenomenal, absolutely phenomenal. She's even been happy for me to leave her at the villa where I go off and do things that needed to be done, like sorting out the internet or going to the shop or going to get food. Before, she would always have to come with me. She wouldn't feel safe enough to be left at home when we were in the UK, but here she's happy to be left, which is a big revelation for us, a huge one.

I’ve been a bit quiet lately because life has been kicking my arse in the nicest possible way all the preparations for our big move out to Bali are starting to come to ahead because we fly on Wednesday The last few weeks have been absolute chaos with my second oldest daughter moving in with her two kids a family camping trip the house up in absolute arms because there is a mixture of mine and Lils stuff It’s been sorted out and packed and sold and kind of set away for things were keeping plus then or my daughter and a kid stuff moving into the house I’ve been extremely overwhelmed There’s been a lot of emotions coming up a lot of realisations a lot of excitement Lils had some higher and some Lowes She’s now finished at cadets five over the last day and she got a lovely little gift from them and a card which was really sweet There was a change to our flights which kind of threw me off a bit and that’s meant that we’re now having to get a hotel the night before by the airport because I otherwise we wouldn’t make it to the airport at the time we need to backwards and forwards with my villa backwards and forwards with my Visa lady there’s a lot to organise that you can imagine plus packing all of mine and little stuff and that’s been a adventure on its own trying to make sure that we’re not overpacking things but also not leaving stuff behind this vital and that tends to be more like they keep shaking things that we want to take with us than anything else selling loads of my stuff and then having to post all of that and deal with the messages and backwards and forwards so that’s been fun I lost my fire on Skool because I missed a couple of days of even just checking in on there because in all honesty I just couldn’t think straight I literally didn’t leave my arse for my elbow My head was just a complete mess I was regulating every day and grounding every day but nothing seemed to be actually kind of grounded me I had to do driving with a nine seater

A WEEK THAT HAS FELT LIKE A COMPLETE WHIRLWIND… It’s been a whirlwind of a week. There has been so much going on and so many thoughts rushing through my head, which has kind of seen me up and down with a lot of the things that I would normally be doing. It’s like I’ve been moving through everything, but not always in the way I would choose, more in a way that’s been led by everything that’s happening around me. THE HOUSE, THE CHAOS AND LETTING GO OF MORE THAN JUST THINGS… To start with, the house is in utter chaos, and organising everything that is to go and what we’re taking to Bali has been a massive process. It’s not just about the items themselves, it’s about the emotion and the energy that is attached to them. Letting go of things like that can feel really scary, because you’re not just releasing objects, you’re releasing parts of your life that you’ve been holding onto for a long time. Even though it can be cathartic, it’s also hard. There are moments where it just feels heavy, where you can feel everything that sits behind what you’re deciding to keep and what you’re deciding to let go of. THE EMOTION TIED TO FAMILY AND MEMORIES… A lot has come up through this process. There have been things from my dad and others who have passed away, and that carries a different kind of weight. There’s so much emotion behind those items, and deciding whether to keep them in a keepsake box or to release them has been a really big, long process for both me and Lily. It’s not a quick decision. It’s something that has needed time, space, and a lot of feeling. WHEN IT ALL STARTS FEELING VERY REAL… At the same time, there have been a lot of exciting things happening as well. The change is really cementing in now. This is happening. It’s getting real in a way that you can’t ignore anymore. There isn’t long until the planned date of leaving, and I think we’re now about four weeks away from moving out to our long-term home in Bali. Lily is starting to really get excited, but she’s also having highs and lows. Everything being chaotic and stuff being everywhere is really difficult for her, because she thrives on structure, organisation, and clarity. Right now, she’s in a bit of limbo, and that’s not an easy place for her to be.

THE WEEK THAT FELT LIKE MY HEAD WAS GOING TO EXPLODE So the last week has absolutely flown by, but it’s also been one of those weeks where my head has felt like it’s ready to explode. I’ve been overwhelmed with all the chaos going on at home, which is completely understandable given everything that’s happening, but it’s also been frustrating. I didn’t want to lose my focus with how I was showing up in my work, but at the same time I needed to make sure things were actually getting done at home too. It’s that constant pull between the two, trying to not swing too far one way or the other, and instead find some kind of balance that actually works. Not just focusing on one thing and letting everything else fall apart, but also not abandoning what I’ve been building in my business. CREATING SPACE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MESS Over the weekend, my second daughter came round to help me sort through some bits, and we actually got a lot done. It made a bigger difference than I expected, not just physically but mentally as well. I now have a space up in my room where I can work, and honestly that feels massive right now. Even though the rest of the house still has stuff everywhere, having one clear space where I can go, sit, and focus without the visual chaos around me has been such a relief. It’s somewhere I can just hide away and work when I need to, and that in itself is really helping me feel a bit more grounded again. TATTOOS, RELEASE AND DOING SOMETHING FOR ME Also, my second daughter does tattooing, so she’s been working on my sleeve that I’ve wanted for ages. And if I’m honest, that’s been such a good release. Once I move to Bali, it’s not going to be as simple as just popping round and getting her to continue it, so being able to do it now feels really special. I love tattoos anyway, but this has been more than that. It’s been time together, it’s been creative, and it’s been something that’s just for me in the middle of everything else that’s going on. LILY, THE MOVE AND ALL THE FEELINGS IN BETWEEN

IN THE PROCESS OF SORTING EVERYTHING OUT In the process of sorting out all my belongings, my house currently looks like what I can only describe as a jumble sale. There are piles of clothes, shoes, bags of bits and pieces to be sold, boxes of things to be sold or given away scattered all over my living room. Everywhere I look there is something that needs deciding, sorting, or letting go of. And if I’m honest, it’s making me feel a little bit out of sorts. There is so much visually going on that it’s actually overwhelming my mind a little bit, like my brain doesn’t quite know where to land because there is just so much everywhere. WHAT I’VE REALISED ABOUT ALL OF THIS I know this is all part of the process of reducing everything so we can move to Bali, but being quite ruthless with it isn’t easy, especially when you’re doing it on your own. There’s a lot of energy, emotions, and feelings attached to things. Even the small bits hold something. They take up space physically, but they also hold meaning in some way. So trying to detach from that and release it is a huge part of this journey, but it’s also one of the most challenging parts of this journey. IF I’M HONEST… THIS BIT STINGS A LITTLE There are moments where I see things that have been part of my life and realise they’re no longer going to be part of it, and that does sting a little bit. Not because they’re things I need to keep forever, because they’re not, but because they’ve been part of my life. And there’s something about letting go of things when you don’t quite feel ready that feels uncomfortable. But at the same time, I know that there isn’t really a choice here. I can’t leave everything behind, and I can’t take everything with me. So holding onto it just doesn’t make sense anymore. THE REALITY OF THE NEXT FEW WEEKS What I have realised is that over the next five weeks, I’m probably going to feel quite scattered mentally, emotionally, and physically. There is a lot to deal with, a lot to sort out, and a lot of changes happening all at once. And even though I know it’s all for the greater good, it doesn’t stop it from feeling overwhelming at times. I’m super aware of what’s coming, and I’m so looking forward to the freedom that’s going to come with moving to Bali. Not having all of the baggage, not physically and not energetically, is going to create so much space for both me and Lily. It’s just getting to that point that is the process, and it’s definitely a process.