THIS IS WHAT STARTING OVER ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE (NOT THE INSTAGRAM VERSION)
๐ง๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ช ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐ง๐๐ฅ ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ฆ So the new chapter has begun. We are finally in Bali. This has been a long time coming. ๐ง๐๐ ๐๐๐ง ๐ก๐ข ๐ข๐ก๐ ๐ง๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ข๐จ๐ง The lead up to being here has been one hell of a ride. We have had lots of highs and lows in the few months that we were getting ready to come. My plan originally was to document everything, but chaos hit, overwhelm hit, and dysregulation hit. In all honesty, I wasn't able to string a sentence together, let alone do any form of videos or writing to keep everyone updated on our travels and our journey. ๐ช๐๐ฌ ๐โ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐๐ฅ๐๐ก๐ ๐ง๐๐๐ฆ ๐ก๐ข๐ช I will be documenting the journey here on my blog and everywhere else because I know we're not the only people to go through these things. I know there are other people wanting to make big moves or big life changes like this, knowing how to honour yourself and come back to yourself when needed, and actually letting go of certain things at times when pressure gets too high. ๐ช๐โ๐ฅ๐ ๐๐๐ง๐จ๐๐๐๐ฌ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ We are on our second full day in Bali, and we arrived three days ago. I have to say I feel like I'm at home. This just feels like, yeah, my place. ๐๐๐๐ฌโ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐๐๐๐ง (๐๐ก๐ ๐ช๐ข๐ชโฆ ๐ง๐๐๐ฆ ๐ข๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ง ๐ ๐) Lily has settled really well. She's loving it here and said that she feels very calm and is shocked by how calm she feels and has really enjoyed kind of seeing the little bits around like children, walking the streets without adults present, just everyone being so friendly and happy. The warmth obviously makes a really big difference: the sunshine, the having a pool. It's just all really surreal for her at the moment, and I'm sure that she's going to have lots of highs and lows, but I already know that this was definitely the right move to make for her. ๐ง๐๐ ๐๐๐ง ๐ง๐๐๐ง ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐ฉ๐๐ฅ๐ฌ๐ง๐๐๐ก๐ Bringing her to a different country is a huge thing and one no parent would take lightly, but for me, knowing that she can start to get settled, find her feet, make friends, and go out is just phenomenal, absolutely phenomenal. She's even been happy for me to leave her at the villa where I go off and do things that needed to be done, like sorting out the internet or going to the shop or going to get food. Before, she would always have to come with me. She wouldn't feel safe enough to be left at home when we were in the UK, but here she's happy to be left, which is a big revelation for us, a huge one.