🔥
Mar 24 • BEDFORD TO BALI
WHEN EVERYTHING FEELS LIKE CHAOS BUT YOU’RE STILL TRYING TO BUILD SOMETHING BIGGER
THE WEEK THAT FELT LIKE MY HEAD WAS GOING TO EXPLODE
So the last week has absolutely flown by, but it’s also been one of those weeks where my head has felt like it’s ready to explode. I’ve been overwhelmed with all the chaos going on at home, which is completely understandable given everything that’s happening, but it’s also been frustrating. I didn’t want to lose my focus with how I was showing up in my work, but at the same time I needed to make sure things were actually getting done at home too.
It’s that constant pull between the two, trying to not swing too far one way or the other, and instead find some kind of balance that actually works. Not just focusing on one thing and letting everything else fall apart, but also not abandoning what I’ve been building in my business.
CREATING SPACE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MESS
Over the weekend, my second daughter came round to help me sort through some bits, and we actually got a lot done. It made a bigger difference than I expected, not just physically but mentally as well. I now have a space up in my room where I can work, and honestly that feels massive right now.
Even though the rest of the house still has stuff everywhere, having one clear space where I can go, sit, and focus without the visual chaos around me has been such a relief. It’s somewhere I can just hide away and work when I need to, and that in itself is really helping me feel a bit more grounded again.
TATTOOS, RELEASE AND DOING SOMETHING FOR ME
Also, my second daughter does tattooing, so she’s been working on my sleeve that I’ve wanted for ages. And if I’m honest, that’s been such a good release. Once I move to Bali, it’s not going to be as simple as just popping round and getting her to continue it, so being able to do it now feels really special.
I love tattoos anyway, but this has been more than that. It’s been time together, it’s been creative, and it’s been something that’s just for me in the middle of everything else that’s going on.
LILY, THE MOVE AND ALL THE FEELINGS IN BETWEEN
On the Lily front, things have been going well. She’s doing really well learning Indonesian, or Bahasa as it’s known, and she’s now really focusing on the move. But it hasn’t been all smooth. There’s been a lot of ups and downs for her too.
She’s starting to really realise that she’s leaving this life behind, and that means not seeing her friends in person anymore. She had one of her friends over this weekend, someone she hasn’t seen in a long time but has stayed in touch with through WhatsApp. She was telling me how emotional they both get when they talk about the move.
What really stood out was that she said she hides her feelings because she doesn’t want her friend to see her upset. So we had a really good conversation about that. About how allowing her emotions to come out is actually a good thing, and that her friend would understand. That she doesn’t have to carry that on her own.
THE A–Z, THE QUESTIONS AND A NEW IDEA
My A–Z videos are continuing to do really well, and something interesting has come from that. Lily has been watching them, and she’s been asking questions about some of the wording I use. Words that she doesn’t fully understand.
So we sat and broke them down together. I explained what each word meant and then connected it all together so it made sense in context. And that got me thinking… if she doesn’t understand some of these terms, then other people probably don’t either.
So now I’m going to start creating some videos that break down these words in a really simple way, because I think that could be really helpful for a lot of people. Not everyone knows the terminology, but they feel the experiences.
THE EXCITEMENT… AND THE LITTLE BIT OF ANXIETY TOO
As for me, I’m super excited about the move. I can feel it getting closer, more real with every single day. But there are also some anxieties around how everything is going to fall into place, and I think that’s normal. It would be strange if there wasn’t anything coming up around that.
I’ve actually started packing my suitcase already with the things I know I want to take and don’t need right now. And doing that… that’s made it feel very real.
Like… this is actually happening.
Ekkkk. 💗
2
0 comments
WHEN EVERYTHING FEELS LIKE CHAOS BUT YOU’RE STILL TRYING TO BUILD SOMETHING BIGGER
powered by
skool.com/naomi-quinn-official-6895
Documenting my journey: real, raw life as a neurodiverse mum. First solo trip to Bali 🏝️
Suggested communities
Powered by