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Jan 26 • BEDFORD TO BALI
FOUR DAYS TO GO (three until I leave home)
Four days to go until I leave the UK, but actually three days until I leave my home because I’m taking Lils to her sister’s the night before. It also makes things a little bit closer for my train journey, so we’re staying there for the night, and it feels good for Lils to have me there for the first night at her sister’s before I head off the next day.
TODAY WAS DIFFERENT.
Today has been a little bit of a different day. We slowed it right down. We did housework that needed to be done. We spent a lot of time together, just me and Lils. We watched some films and had a laugh, which was really nice, and we both needed it. I think it’s been a lot on both of us.
Both of our neurodiversity, both of our anxiety, and all of the big changes that are happening have really kicked us in the arse over the last week or so. But today it felt like things were starting to gently fall into place.
LITTLE LIFE BITS GETTING SORTED.
I ordered my granddaughter’s birthday present, which should be with her tomorrow on her birthday. That felt good. Another thing ticked off.
WHERE I’M AT WITH THE TRIP.
I feel ready now for this trip. I’ve got everything sorted and planned the best that I can. One of the things I’m really trying to do with this trip to Bali is not being an over-planner and going with the flow, because I know Bali is very much a chilled, go-with-the-flow kind of place. That’s what I’m hoping to experience while I’m there, not being so rigid with pre-planning everything in advance. We’ll see how that goes. Keep reading and you’ll see how that unfolds as time goes on.
TODAY’S ENERGY.
Today has just been a really, really nice chill day. Yesterday I ordered some Ashwagandha to help with my anxiety and sleeping because it’s been horrific and I’m exhausted, mentally and physically. Trying to plan everything and focus has been a real challenge for me. I took one of the Ashwagandha earlier and I’ve got to say, it’s working really well. My thoughts feel a lot quieter. We’ll see what happens come bedtime, but right now I feel nice and relaxed, chilled out, and not plagued by constant thoughts brushing through my head like they normally do.
THE IRONY BIT.
I’m talking about going with the flow, yet I’m pre-planning my week because there are lots of moving parts that need to come together in a very short space of time. So I’m looking forward to starting the week in good spirits, hopefully with a good night’s sleep, because honestly, I really need one. Otherwise I don’t know how I’m going to function when it comes to figuring out flights, trains, and all the bits in between.
THE REALITY.
But that’s part of this journey, isn’t it? Experiencing all of it. Knowing that I can do this mammoth thing. There may be mishaps along the way, and that’s part and parcel of having an adventure.
And fuck me, this is going to be an adventure.
WHAT I KNOW FOR SURE.
I’m going to meet some amazing people. I’m going to have some incredible experiences. And most of all, I’m going to meet more of me. I’m going to find out more about myself, how I cope when things are difficult without anyone there to support me in person.
I’m really looking forward to this new and improved Naomi that’s going to come from this trip. I know it’s going to be epic in every single way. My anxiety has subsided, thanks to the Ashwagandha, and the excitement has kicked in, like really kicked in. I feel elated that I’m actually doing this.
And oh my God… how amazing.
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