In the moment · LTC Ashram

Nov '23 (edited) in Feed

In the moment

Sitting here writing this from inside the emergency room of my dad's local hospital. He was found on the floor today with a change of mental status. So far, his body seems okay for a 92 year old while they try and sort out why he has had the change in cognition. Nonetheless, I decided to write on here because I continue to find how a committed mind can continue to experience the benefits of awareness. I enjoy observing these benefits. For example, while 4 hours away this morning and conversing with first responders only by phone, I could have been panicked, frustrated, anger, sorrow, etc. That said, instead, I felt a sense of trust and comfort, clear-headedness and compassion. I do work in the healthcare field, so one could easily attribute the response to this experience. However, I'm willing to say the Course was there with me. A choice to "see Peace instead" is always available. The willingness to stay in the now rather than project into worrying, is a choice that be made endlessly when we want to see a better way. As I continue to sit here, in the bustling hallways of a very crowded emergency room because there aren't enough rooms available, I could feel frustration and exasperated or simple acceptance and patience. Living the Course has taught me - there is always a choice between ego and Source. The rules of decision tell me to be willing to ask again when I at least see that I don't like the results of what I'm perceiving. I'm grateful for the opportunity to forgive and make the Choice for God.

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