Lately, I've been feeling empty. I feel like there's nothing to do in the world. I want to find the meaning behind life and I get nothing. These thoughts may be due to the toxic people around me but I can't help it. I don't feel connected with others. Every time I decide to watch a TV show/ movie I think it might be the same story love, death, happiness etc. I don't feel happiness anymore. I've never told anyone that I am going into depression unlike others who do such things for sympathy. I don't feel anything, sadness, fear, hope, nothing. There's family problems and things aren't going well (money not involved). I can't even talk to my parents because of their thinking and behavior. What do I do?

So I am preparing for an exam called JEE, and I need to get into a college next year for B.Tech Computer Science. The catch is that in order to score very high I need to go through a very tough journey. People who are my competitors are studying for 12-14 hours daily from 2-3 years or more. I have managed 8-9 hours daily but I need to push it further as I am unable to complete my targets. The exam is in the 3rd or 4th week of January which means I roughly have 4 months. In this period, I am completely isolated at home, the only interactions are with family and some outings on Sundays for a maximum of 1-2 hours. The target is to achieve 12 hours minimum study time per day while battling the worries about failure and loneliness. I do have a small group of online friends who play Minecraft with me occasionally so it does help with the loneliness part. Other than that there's just the will to succeed that's driving my daily work. I'll be sure to update from time to time, I finally want to work harder on myself. Hoping to see a better version of myself down the path.

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I had a great raw chat with homie Andrew. he's gonna help with the L.U.A.R. Podcast research to make it more fun to watch/listen to than anything else out there on the topic of phone addiction & digital well-being. more raw coffee chats to come. who's next? ✌🏼 Alex