https://youtu.be/eMkTMfUtuQ4 I thought becoming a morning person would fix my life. Turns out, I was solving the wrong problem all along. 424 mornings ago, I was stuck in an endless loop of doomscrolling, sleeping in, failed routines, and if I'm being honest, I was becoming someone I didn't recognize anymore. So after a strange intervention from my future self (or maybe just sleep deprivation), I decided to figure out what was actually holding me back. This is a story about phone addiction, morning routines, self-sabotage, identity change, dopamine, productivity obsession, and trying to become the person you know you're capable of becoming. Later, ✌🏼 Alex

About social media addiction, recovery, relapse, doubling down, identity shifting and community accountability. if you want to go fast, go alone; 🏃‍♂️💀 if you want to go far, go together. 🏃🏃‍♀️🏃‍♂️🏃🏃‍♀️🏃‍♂️🏁 Thanks @Andrew Clowtis for helping untangle the film stuck inside my head. https://substack.com/@alexboke/note/p-199773215?r=52vpoh&utm_medium=ios&utm_source=notes-share-action

maybe we can help each other out....or at least put our intentions out in the aether.

Lately I’ve realized I’m stuck in a loop that I can’t seem to break. I waste time, then feel guilty about wasting time. After that I try to suddenly “fix my life” by becoming disciplined, productive, organized, motivated etc. I stay consistent for a few days or weeks, then slowly fall back into old habits again. Most of my days go into consuming random content, scrolling, YouTube, entertainment, overthinking my future, comparing myself with others, and avoiding the actual work I know I should do. The strange thing is I’m fully aware of what I’m doing, but still can’t seem to stop it long term. I think a big part of it is fear of failure, fear of wasting more years, and using distractions as an escape from uncomfortable emotions. My brain now craves fast dopamine and deep work feels mentally exhausting even though I genuinely want to build something meaningful with my life. I’ve watched productivity videos, tried routines, discipline systems, time management tips, dopamine detoxes, etc. but I always end up falling back into the same cycle. Has anyone genuinely broken out of this kind of loop before? What actually helped you: - emotionally - mentally - practically Especially if you were someone who kept restarting over and over again.

This 22min video will be all about IDENTITY SHIFTING... i'm looking to narrow down my title for my next video, i'm kinda doubting the one saying "I'm not not a morning person" as it might be too specific. Becoming a morning person is kind of story vehicle to the video, but the core of the message is about changing limiting beliefs. let me know your thoughts....which one peaks most curiosity to you? TEASER HERE: https://youtu.be/NW2A-hqumaE?si=25Ect3UBzmRCrZQb ✌🏼 Alex