Good to meet you, Zachary, and everyone else in the community. I'm Joseph in Los Angeles and it is all my pleasure to be here. I am new to spirituality, but I am inspired to get my "transformation" journey off to a start and become the man I've always been deep in my soul. I never knew it had a process to follow. I was under the assumption that it just occured and that was it sort of like majic. I am deeply grateful for this magical gift as I have been on autopilot for most of my life. I was not living I simply existed and nothing realized for me. I am ready to learn as much as I can and be of service to other brothers and sisters who don't know or understand the process. To simply follow whatever I am here to do along with my new self.
I am also a psych major and been recently identifying much of my negative behavioral patterns and the "why"I was making poor decisions and then asked "why did I do that for?", only to cause more self-inflicted pain.
I was awakened from my deep 💤's on 11/11. I never received an owner's manual or instruction as to how to move forward and proceed. I've done the research on spirituality. I knew something was going on with me feeling lighter and things were so clear and different. I felt no interest in my old ways and I still don't. After a week or so, I was on fb when I began getting videos on spiritual awakening and its symptoms. It clicked and began my research. There is so much misinformation on FB and onlie. I was not feeling great and with so info being absorbed, I felt so confused for a few weeks. Then I filtered what I read or saw and then connected the dots. I thought I was going through some psychosis or similar. Lol, I have to laugh since it's been sort of crazy... a good crazy. No matter what, I trust it as I have lived on autopilot most of my life. Throughout life, I have tried many other programs like support groups, AA, and therapy. Nothing pulled me up out; until now. I know I have work on what is required, but the master classes people aren't cheap and I am not surprised.
I'm not religious at all, however I do believe that there is a Divine Creator. How can I not, I have always been blessed especially during my darkest days repaying my Karma. Ive always asked for an opportunity to be who I truly am deep inside. Iam glad to have found your community on Google in search of "shadow work" journal prompts and your site came on first. I saw your community link and decided to join. I hope you or other members here can get me some advice or recommend a place.(free or on the low end). Believe it or not, AI has been truly helpful and developed a guide to assist my transformation. It is very detailed and helpful. Any input is appreciated. Enough for now as I was supposed to simply say
👋 hello.
Thank you.