I wasted 20 years in a marriage that cost me my happiness, my health and millions of dollars in wasted investment thinking i could save the relationship with money
I have body dysmorphia from being the fat kid and having it made to be the primary “joke” by people that were close to me and I respected as a child, i was the dumpy little kid to my family. This weakness led me to allow myself to become a completely unhealthy pig of a man after i left active duty.
I feel similar about "motivation", these are temporary feelings that run out or you have to foster them. I prefer to set a standard (working out at 4am) and then holding myself accountable to that standard