It's been almost two months since beginning Somatic Experiencing with Adrienne. I'm so grateful. The greatest gift is in being empowered to do the daily self practices. Because if she wanted she could have become my new cult leader. But she chooses to continually give more freedom and empowerment and I believe that this is the Divine path of healing that is so often missed. Most breakthroughs for me are preceded by either very emotional stories about me that matter but can be a huge distraction and even worse a stubborn resistance. But when I want the healing more than anything, it's there waiting. It's been there the whole time. I'm always amazed that the gentleness and the healing is greater than the resistance. This morning I woke up with enough calm and clarity to receive some gifts. Adrienne is right that the narrative can be a distraction. It matters. But it's not as significant as tuning in to the capacity. That deserves my focus. I felt support in my feet and they were together in a lotus pose. I thanked God for the support in my body I clasped my hands and turned my head to the side and attempted to allow the pain to come in and be felt as it often does through my neck. Then I lifted my arms over my head and allowed a really prolonged and shaking stretch. There was so much relief of pain and deep comfort but an almost uncontrollable emotional impulse to bend over and curl up in a fetal position instead immediately afterwards. This even though I know that it's better relief and I had intended to lie down again with my body in a backwards arc to lean into the relief and again stretch my spine out. I want to receive benefits of all postures instead of being stuck bent over. So I went back and forth between the two, the crouching and stretching. Leaning into it until my body was shaking that little vibration of a good stretch. I kept going back and forth between sensing my feet, and each body part corresponding to my emotional sensory core from top to bottom. And also bottom to top. I began to feel energy coming up from my feet and some vibration and stretching happening in my legs. Every time I got closer to the center perhaps the solar plexus to gut, everything got quiet. I would hit a wall of silence,

I just wanted to share something that helps me often: when certain words stand out, I go to the dictionary to read the definition. That then guides me further in my daily practice. Also, not knowing the bible well at all, I have found putting a general idea that may drop in during the day, in the search bar. AI then gives me several results from which I go and look up what speaks to me.