To be honest , the last club of weeks , i've been wrestling from demons and it's been really rough because I realize i'm not the man I wanna beTo be honest, the last couple of weeks I've been wrestling with some demons and it's been really rough because I'm realizing I'm not the man I wanna be, but to be honest, I don't really know how to fix it. Or let me rephrase that I know how to fix it, but I don't know how to start it. Then yesterday I'm at the gym bench pressing.\nAnd I hear those voices in my you're slow, you're not getting enough, the mountain's too high.Your dreams are to expensive. I'm going to stop listening to those voices evening , if those voices , I our meat from police of love.Because a lot of them have been. I know who God wants me to be and I don't know who I wanna be and honestly , I don't think they're too far apart , but I need to stop staring at the ceiling and listening to the voices

What's up guys?! Sorry ive been a little MIA the last few days. Ive been dealing with crazy stuff on a lot of different fronts. And it's made me think do I have egg on my face?

So i'm anti gym helping other adaptive athletes train.\n Yesterday, and one of my guys who I've known since he was in high school, it came up to me and told me that he was now going through something I went through when I was about his age.. that experience was painful, but now\n My insight into that pain can help him walk through it.

I'm learning over the last few days that asking for help , isn't the only hard part. What do I mean? We all get told asking for help is the hardest part. Which is true but it's only part of the story. Because after you ask for help, there is always a person who you ask\nAnd sometimes the emotional toll getting asked takes is just as big as doing the asking.But nobody sees that. And I'm not saying don't ask\n I'm saying sometimes.\n Check on them people when you ask because help is a two way street

We all have skeleton or demons or ghosts. Or whatever you wanna call them. Sometimes they are more visible.\nAnd sometimes they're not. The one thing that they all have in common is that they can make some days harder than others. The important thing we have to remember is not to let those hard days win.