Self sabotage is to me now a bodys response protest or riot. Which it does to get my attention about something that I'm distracting from. It has been it's way of destroying my wellbeing to get me to see, the issue, take it seriously do something about it. Be it external and if internal then rethink the desire, belief, understanding, the Mindset basically. It says don't postpone my wellbeing, don't give me hope that it'll change, on its own. Don't distract. Address it. And if you don't I protest, *(Don't read) Prior to this period I had for a goal, lived a fairly disciplined life, actually the cause of it was because I felt good about myself because I believed whatever I desire I would get, somethings and lot of things I did, but one. Intense at that time one thing didn't. So it's cause I started to feel bad about myself, I lost discipline, the moment I think, the moment It looked like I'm getting what I want, I would jump right back to that disciplined life. Gym abstaining, - ( no comments about this part )