I’m going through something challenging at the moment. Finally put an end to an abusive relationship spanning 13 years. I’m finding it easy to let go of him but the challenge I’m facing is parental alienation. He’s restricting access to my son who is 11. I’ve just been working on my fears around this… fears of losing my son, the stigma of being a mum but not being around, being judged by people who don’t know me and my son believing his Dads lies. However, this is the 3D stories and my fears are rooted in what if I can’t emotionally cope with this feeling if it happens. I’m clearly putting my son on a pedestal and he’s treating me like his dad at times.
So I’m facing the fear of imaging not seeing him again and the truth is I don’t want to spend my life fighting over a child. Fighting with his Dad and fighting for affection. Then I would have to face my fear, but the energy spent fighting is probably worse than walking away if needed.
I’m giving too much importance to the role my partner is playing and how great he believes he is as a dad. I’ve been putting my son on a pedastal.
My thoughts turned to what if I give up on the fight? The fear is I lose him? Then this is about trust, trusting the universe has a plan, knows what it’s doing. But, my fear is if I let go, what if the universe, God, doesn’t put this right when there’s something I could have done physically? Which ultimately is, what if my faith, vibration, isn’t strong enough to allow this in! This is it, this is the ultimate fear underpinning all of this!
Thoughts?