Looking forward to the identity shift

Aaron… I appreciate you!

You’re the coolest dude on the internet 😁

I’m looking forward to the identity shift experience starting tomorrow.

It’s a good reminder that experiences are exciting (and why Steve Jobs did events).

I’ve been on a profound transformational journey over the past couple of years and I’m finally more ready than I’ve ever been to shed my old skin.

Something I’ve found is that I feel a bit manic sometimes—at the peak of optimism for what I can do and accomplish in the world. Then, sometimes a short time after in the pit of despair and worrying that my life is falling apart.

Resolving some relationships with family members recently has helped and leads me back to the idea that love is the most important aspect of moving through this process.

Transformation has been especially hard for me because I’ve carried some very deep wounds—that I spent most of my life not even realizing I was carrying. It’s taken a while to even realize what I feel.

I can only assume feeling a bit manic while moving through a major transformation is par for the course—and Claude confirms it.

But I think it has another layer for me because my dad had bi-polar depression, and took his own life after a manic phase—just before my 4th birthday.

I think I went through my childhood suppressing the side of my own personality that my dad had when he was manic, because it freaked out my mother (she was afraid of me taking my own life….especially when I struggled with depression).

So for me, I think transformation is truly about learning to be a different version of myself.

I learned to think of myself as the version of myself that didn’t freak out my mother. I just resumed my relationship with her this past weekend after 3 years without talking, because I’ve finally arrived at a place where I don’t get pulled back into how she sees me whenever we talk. I’m starting to find the ability to feel like my own person for the first time in my life. Healing is such an unexpected process. I can’t help but think that many of us who are going through different but similar things right now and fighting our way through the jungle in the dark are doing so so that we can light the way for so many millions who will follow us and have a much easier journey than we did. And that this is the force that will transform the Earth.

“We’re all just walking each other home.” –Ram Dass

Aaron, thanks for overcoming what you overcome in order to stand up tall and proud like you deserve to. The hardest thing about it is that people don’t really see you properly until they find their way into the world that you inhabit.

That’s why Steve Perry said, “Don’t stop believing!”

See you tomorrow! ✌️

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Looking forward to the identity shift