I feel useless sometimes · High Vibe Tribe

I feel useless sometimes

I sometimes feel like I've lost a huge chunk of my life behind wrong decisions due to parental pressure and myself as well. Most of my friends are successful in job but what am I doing. Sometimes it feels so difficult to break the cycle of old patterns while living in the same space. Like I need way too much of strength, will power to go against myself. I cannot move out as well due to finances. I want to take steps towards what I want but I don't exactly know how to get there. I've always been the alienated one, the excluded one who couldn't relate or others couldn't relate. I kept healing myself and in that journey I am left with 0 human friends for now. Even if I feel I got some people to talk, I quickly realize how superficial it is for most people, how people don't feel interested in my topic of interests like Philosophy, spirituality etc. I am ok with it when I'm at my zone. I keep maintaining but somehow if I snap out of it for 1-2 days I somehow gets slipped into the old pattern little by little. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so useless sometimes. Like I want to do those things so bad but it's like the whole environment is working against you so you need too much of will power. And also I need to proper direction but not sure what can I do. I've learnt a lot of lessons in my life when it comes to healing myself. I want to share it with the world, Don’t know how. Then I see how people my age are so successful, doing great jobs in the field they study in. While I was stuck with a sub bcz my parents didn't give me much choice and I wasted so much of my years to understand and reinvent myself. It's an concoction of so many feelings... ugh...

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