My ex and I have been broken up
for a year and I thought I had gotten over him but yesterday and today I found myself missing him and wanting his company and love. I had a dream about him and I woke up sad. I wanted to hug him and give him love and feel his energy, feel him comforting me. We didn’t end on good terms and I want to talk to him to let him know I still have love for him and apologize for the times I was not good to him, however, I think he still has me blocked. I had him blocked up until today because I was contemplating on reaching out to him. I don’t want to be on bad terms because although we had bad moments and did things we shouldn’t have to each other, our love was beautiful and very raw when we were not selfish. I miss feeling so connected to his soul. I thought I wouldn’t miss him since it’s been a year and although I am doing better than I was when we initially broke up, I still miss the wholesome moments and I find myself crying wanting to fix things with him and hoping that he also wants to fix things with me and that this time we won’t be selfish and our relationship will be stronger and healthier. He was my first serious relationship so I don’t know if I will always have love for him and if I do I am scared that I’ll never be satisfied with my next boyfriend since I’ll always have some love for this ex and I’ll be missing him on certain occasions like his birthday or even just a random day. Have any of you fully gotten over an ex to where you no longer get sad remembering happy moments and what helped? Is it possible to still be in a satisfying relationship while still missing and thinking about those wholesome moments you had with an ex or even just the little things like a song or a band? I thought I was ready to start dating again but now I’m not so sure.